I know I have left once before and made a come back before leaving for a longer amount of time and feel bad for trying to come back to the site after that. I left this time for several reasons, both dealing with personal problems between moving and getting settled in as well as anxiety and health issues but also the site itself. I'm not going to go into that last point as I feel that it's not something that needs to be brought up or is well really a problem any longer. Anyhow, I have missed you all here and how open this site is and how creative you can be here and would like to come back and RP with you all again. I feel like having left once before and coming back that I've messed up here and would like a chance to start over and be a part of the awesome community again here at SA.
I'm sorry for leaving as I have and coming back will be a gradual thing if you'd all like me back. I'd start with only one char but may not reply very often due to not feeling well lately (part of the reason I left). I'm not sure what it is but I have a hunch that it's an inner ear problem along with sinusitis (the last of which I've already been diagnosed with) but basically it makes me feel like shit a good majority of the time. I hear a high pitch ringing as well as like a roaring in my ears, have pressure in my head and ears and occasionally pain in my ears and sinus pain/pressure in my face. It makes me dizzy and off-balanced a lot of the time and just plain weird...I'm not sure how to explain it but almost like either the room is moving around me, I'm moving when I'm not or just that something is not right (sometimes a bit depersonalized and sometimes it starts up an anxiety attack) and along with this it makes me a bit nauseous at times. Also all of this has been affecting my anxiety and making it worse which only makes everything else worse and it's a vicious cycle which has really got me 'off my game' so to speak. All of this makes it difficult to concentrate and I feel 'fuzzy headed' or 'spaced out' a lot of the time and like I constantly have the flu or something.
I'm going to be seeing the dr. soon about it once we get our medical figured out (since it's been taking a while to process) to hopefully do something about this as it's preventing me from well, doing a lot of things right now and just making life really difficult. It has really taken away from my writing muse (more so being able to concentrate or feeling well enough to focus on writing) and has pulled me away from RPing. So, until I can see someone about this and figure out what it is/what can be done about it, I may not be posting much or as much as I would if I didn't feel like this. Again, I'm sorry for leaving like I have...and I hope I can join you all again. (If I do leave again, it deff. won't be for this long...hopefully it won't happen but with this crap, I have no idea).
I'm sorry for leaving as I have and coming back will be a gradual thing if you'd all like me back. I'd start with only one char but may not reply very often due to not feeling well lately (part of the reason I left). I'm not sure what it is but I have a hunch that it's an inner ear problem along with sinusitis (the last of which I've already been diagnosed with) but basically it makes me feel like shit a good majority of the time. I hear a high pitch ringing as well as like a roaring in my ears, have pressure in my head and ears and occasionally pain in my ears and sinus pain/pressure in my face. It makes me dizzy and off-balanced a lot of the time and just plain weird...I'm not sure how to explain it but almost like either the room is moving around me, I'm moving when I'm not or just that something is not right (sometimes a bit depersonalized and sometimes it starts up an anxiety attack) and along with this it makes me a bit nauseous at times. Also all of this has been affecting my anxiety and making it worse which only makes everything else worse and it's a vicious cycle which has really got me 'off my game' so to speak. All of this makes it difficult to concentrate and I feel 'fuzzy headed' or 'spaced out' a lot of the time and like I constantly have the flu or something.
I'm going to be seeing the dr. soon about it once we get our medical figured out (since it's been taking a while to process) to hopefully do something about this as it's preventing me from well, doing a lot of things right now and just making life really difficult. It has really taken away from my writing muse (more so being able to concentrate or feeling well enough to focus on writing) and has pulled me away from RPing. So, until I can see someone about this and figure out what it is/what can be done about it, I may not be posting much or as much as I would if I didn't feel like this. Again, I'm sorry for leaving like I have...and I hope I can join you all again. (If I do leave again, it deff. won't be for this long...hopefully it won't happen but with this crap, I have no idea).
