i won't say i'm in love

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<div align=center>Mutual? Levi wasn't sure about that. He was pretty sure Tyberius was straight apart from... A couple of things. They'd gotten into situations that were a little less than innocent twice, now. Should Levi tell the older man that? He didn't know. Was it useful information? Maybe. He wasn't really sure how this whole counselling thing worked. If you don’t ask, you’ll never find out. That was true, but if it wasn't mutual then it might just end up being a little awkward for Ty rooming with someone that was more or less completely in love with you - and Levi was. No matter how much he hated that term, no matter how much his own feelings disgusted him.

Levi wasn't so sure about the second part though, Ty hadn't spoken to him for weeks after that first incident when... Well, when a lot of things had nearly happened. "We... The last time something... Happened though.." Levi frowned just a little, "he didn't want to talk to me for ages. He freaked out and said I'd used my demon powers on him but I didn't, I swear!" At least he didn't think he had, he usually knew if he'd used those on someone, he had complete control over them. "He almost kissed me and then he got scared and yelled at me and hit me."</div>
 

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Ahh, that's right, Wong Ha Jung thought, suddenly feeling uncomfortably nostalgic. The issue of powers certainly was a significant one in this case, wasn't it? Having been down that route, too, for a good part of his life, he couldn't help but feel a little put on the spot. It wasn't like he had actually ever dealt with the problem in any really effective way; all he ever did was either run away from it, or put his head down and go along quietly. And he still wasn't sure how he was supposed to feel when he looked back on those years besides horrible embarrassment but since almost everything about himself seemed like an embarrassment anyways, it was all simply redundant.

The man said softly, not knowing what kind of effect his words might have, "There's really no right answer to this sort of thing." Emotions were confusing enough to sort through without having powers around to complicate everything. "You just" -what was he supposed to say? Have a little faith?- "act on what your heart tells you." Which was terrible, awful advice and Wong Ha Jung knew it. He looked off to the side and blushed.

"People react differently to displays of lo- af-affection." The stumble and correction often were tangled in his mind. "My -I didn't speak to one of my friends for maybe two weeks after something like that." Just come out and call her your old girlfriend already, it's not that hard. It's not that meaningful. But if he did, then it would feel like he'd be betraying something if he continued to carry on as he was. Still, there was the sense that he was disrespecting that girl by not giving their relationship the right name. "I thought she was making fun of me. And since I already had something of a crush on her, I didn't want to face her and deal with it."
 

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<div align=center>What his heart told him? He didn't know what his heart was telling him and that was exactly why he was sat in this damn room. He tried to push his frustration at the comment away, and merely scowled to himself instead of snapping. He knew that different people acted differently, he'd slept with enough boys to realize that some of them were cute and giggly, others flirted back and others freaked out at any sign of it. People were too complicated and right now he was beginning to wish he'd never been kicked out of his home. Demons weren't as complicated as humans, not really.

I'm losing my mind, that's what's happening to him. He'd never had to deal with any real emotions before and he really wasn't enjoying them, mainly due to the fact that he had no idea if this was good or bad. Right now, it looked like bad, and this was probably a waste of his time because no matter what the outcome of this meeting was he'd probably hide from his feelings until they blew over, or if they didn't, merely try to force them away. Good luck with that. "Great, if you didn't face her and deal with it, that means I don't have to either, right?"</div>
 

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The man shook his head gently at Levi's conclusion, because he had been expecting it, because it sounded so familiar. And because, too, there was something fundamentally flawed with that reasoning in his own past scenario. "You'll probably regret it later if you just ignore it now," Wong Ha Jung said, smiling a bit uncertainly to himself. "Love has a way of digging itself back up with time, no matter how deep you try to bury it. It hurts more if you wait, and don't you think you're too young to already be making decisions that you'll regret for the rest of your life?"

He hesitated then, wondering if it would be too much if he went on fully with what was on his mind. Would it help more? Maybe, maybe not. But this thing that he was thinking of, if the boy hadn't already thought it over, he'd have to eventually. Reality was inevitable, after all.

"You'll most likely outlive most of us," the counselor said, as nicely as possible. It still came out blunter than he thought it would and already, he was worrying. "Being conservative with your options is fine, but. The majority of us aren't moving at the same speed you are. If you're not going to address everything now, it's going to snowball away from you. Are you sure you'll be able to control that? It's harder to manage your choices in a world that's going to be moving at a faster rate than you are. No matter which way you go on it, it's possible that you'll never be able to double back on your decision, not to the extent that most people can anyways."

"I can't speak from personal experience, of course, but I think that if people are going to live so long, they should at least do so happily."
 

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<div align=center>Levi didn't want to say Wong was right, but there was absolutely no denying it. Of course he was right. But if this went badly then instead of being happy he'd just be miserable, but he supposed he was used to being miserable and so would it really make much difference? If he didn't say anything now he'd never ever know and not ever knowing was worse than being rejected. At least if you were rejected you could be sure that nothing was ever going to happen but if you never knew in the first place... He didn't like this one bit. Levi was confused and scared and he wasn't used to dealing with feelings.

You'll most likely outlive most of us. Levi didn't like hearing that, it made him scowl. He knew that fact very well and he hated it. Sure if everyone he loved died, he could always just kill himself, but he had no idea what would happen then. Would he go back to Hell? He had no idea. He couldn't go back to Hell, so hypothetically speaking could he not die? That was a horrible thought, he didn't really want to be stuck on Earth until it ended completely. If you're not going to address everything now, it's going to snowball away from you.

He was ready to pull out his hair by now, he had absolutely no idea what to do. Of course the answer was right there in front of him - and usually Levi was so bold. But could he do that? He had no idea. Thinking about the prospect of that made his heart rate quicken and his palms sweat, what do I do what do I do what do I do? If he didn't do anything now then everything would slip through his fingers like water and he didn't want that. But then again, what if he did do something, and the same thing happened?

Levi pushed himself to his feet, eyes wide, face a little blanker than it had been a moment ago. What the fuck has this guy done to me? He didn't understand. This stupid, bird-brained, raven haired boy had trapped him under some ridiculous, irreversible spell that Levi was feeling the full force of right now. What was so special about him? He was stubborn as a mule and so bitter Levi could practically taste it on his tongue. But he loved it. It was cute in the strangest kind of way and there was something magnetic about that stupid boy that made Levi want to stick to him like glue.

He wasn't one for romance, but damn he wanted to be as close to Tyberius as was physically possible right now.

"Oh fuck it. Fuck this." The demon snapped, raising both hands and turning his back on Wong, heading towards the door and shaking his head. "I need to... Go somewhere. Do something. Jesus fucking Christ." Was it a good idea to be alone with his own thoughts right now? Yes. That was exactly what he needed. Everything Wong said was completely true and Levi hated that fact. Pausing before he reached for the door, he frowned just a little, "thanks, I guess." He mumbled softly, "I guess I just need to take some stuff on board."

With that, the boy vanished through the door of the Councillor's office, leaving it to click shut behind him.</div>
 
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