If I Sing to the Rain, Would the Clouds Break?

Lochlann shifted to his back, pulling Adelene closer, and she yelped a little, placing a hand on his chest again. They were so close. Yet she can't do anything to steal all these ill thoughts away from him. It hurt her own chest.

She wasn't happy to realize she didn't know him yet. She didn't know who Lochlann was, and he was afraid to tell. He felt like a stranger to her, even after she's poured her soul out to him.

"I'm jealous... if there are other people that know while I don't.... It makes me jealous."

She moved her arms carefully, giving Lochlann a hug around his chest. He always hugged her and made her feel okay through it, she wanted to do the same.

And then Lochlann spoke about a dream kiss and... Adelene didn't know how to react at first. Her face instantly went red at the thought.

"H-How did you know I had..?"

And why did he want more dreams? She was sure he wasn't a mind reader.
@"ReD"

"Mistakes..?" Adelene didn't know what he was talking about. Being reminded that Lochlann had a bullet in his leg, hearing that one more person can get him killed, she wasn't really taking this conversation too well. She was glad he was starting to fall asleep because she didn't want him to see her frown.

Things became even more disorienting on her end when Lochlann told her about that night she got drunk. She couldn't remember if that really happened or not. Right now though, it was Lochlann who was having a hard time staying conscious, and maybe he was getting sleep drunk because he was saying things which were too difficult for her to understand, too unbelievable, maybe too nonsensical.

How the hell was she going to leave after that? How was she going to leave if Lochlann had her trapped in his arms? How the hell was she going to leave if she was so confused and her brain was on a meltdown?

"...Go to sleep."
@"ReD"

Addy was starting to feel uncomfortable, because Lochlann was so close and he was getting closer and he was leaning in and... he fell asleep.

Adelene frowned thinking about whatever sedative he injected to himself, anxiously trying to move her hands to push Lochlann back to his spot, and then later on putting her head against his chest to listen to his heartbeat closer.

She wasn't going to feel assured that he wasn't going to die if she wasn't going to do it.

His heartbeat was so slow... His breathing was so light... But he seemed fine, he was just asleep, and the only expression she saw on his face was only asking her to stay.

She decided to stay for a while more. She needed to keep hearing his heartbeat.

And maybe she needed to talk to this Cabel person one time so she can understand what Lochlann's been up to.

She sighed, wrapping one arm over his torso. A few minutes passed, and she was starting to calm down, and their confusing conservation started replaying in her mind. They still didn't make sense.

And that was when she realized how flustered she was with Lochlann's attempt to kiss her. But she didn't push him away and... maybe she wanted it. She's dreamt of it, after all.

A few more minutes. Or maybe a couple of hours. Lochlann's heartbeat was slow, but it wasn't getting any slower and Adelene's done her best to convince herself that he would be fine. She got up, pushing her hair back with her fingers before hopping out of bed to get her goggles in the kitchen table. She wore it loosely around her neck, not bothering to fix it on her hair.

And then she went back beside the bed, kneeling down and reaching over to stroke Lochlann's hair. She was... so anxious for him. He was one of the two closest people in her heart, yet she didn't even know what he was like beyond their time together. She didn't know why he was such a wreck. She wanted to find out, but Lochlann was obviously not going to say anything. Because that's all he ever tells her.

Lochlann was such a stranger and it was scary. She trusted him so much, and it was scary. She wanted to be by his side always, and it was scary when she thinks of how life would be like without him. He was scarier than the Seth Adelene feared.
@"ReD"

Adelene was about to leave that moment. She's gotten what she came back here for and Lochlann was peacefully asleep, she had no more reason to stay.

But just when she got up, Lochlann gasped, as if he's been having difficulty to breathe just now. Adelene scrambled back to the edge of the bed, very suddenly filled with worry. The sedative was probably a bit too strong after all. "Lochlann what's wrong?"

"I think it's time for another go."

Adelene furrowed her brows in confusion, only to be confused even more when Lochlann sat up and pulled her to a hug.

"Of... Of course I'm alive," she whispered back. Somehow, she can't make her voice louder. "Loch, what's wrong? Were you... Were you in pain?" She reached up, wrapping one arm around his neck, while her free hand went up to his head again, petting him gently.
@"ReD"

When Lochlann fell back, Adelene had no choice but to let go, or she was going to fall on him, too. She didn't believe him. She was pretty sure the sedative was still working, and it wasn't good to wake up this way, and it wasn't good to force the body to move while it's down.

Adelene tried to stop him from getting up, but he fell to the floor instead.

"Lochlann you shouldn't move around. That was too much sedative you took a while ago..."

He was asking her to open the drawer. She helped him back to bed, she did her best even though Lochlann was heavy as hell, and gave the drawer a suspicious look. She knew what was in there. She saw what Lochlann kept there when she arrived.

She turned to Lochlann, trying to push him back to lie down. "No," a firm no, followed by panicked and worried words. "Loch I already told you you could die if you overdose yourself and you already did! No more! Can't you get some sleep without it?"
@"ReD"