Infatuation Turned into Disease

ReD · Dec 16, 2015

The wind was howling and the rain slashed through the air in jagged slices so thick that it distored everything before him and made Lochlann feel like he was walking through a fog. It was early evening, but it might as well have been midnight. The sky inked itself an ugly canvas and even the streetlights could not cut through this storm.

He looked over his shoulder as though expecting someone to be behind him, and then Lochlann continued forward. This was a dangerous place to be, out in the streets during the storm, but it was the most direct path between his apartment and Adelene's, and Lochlann needed to be there.

He needed to feel safe.

Even though they'd barely spoken since that day, Lochlann needed her. He needed to feel her in his bones again. He couldn't take it anymore. He was shaking and he could not stop. He did not feel firmly in his own body. This skin, this human shape, felt like dirt clinging to him and he worried the rain would wash it off him any moment.

But he clung to it.

Despite the pounding water soaking his hair and clothes to his skin, because of course, Lochlann didn't take an umbrella, he somehow looked good. He looked like he belonged in this storm. Lust washed off his body in waves and every part of his aura screamed fuck me fuck me right here in this storm.

But that's not what he was desperate for.

He jerked his head up suddenly, surprised because he could catch someone else out in the rain, and he was about to skirt out of the way when he thought he recognized the silhouette.

"Addy?" his voice was black velvet.

@Trahnael

Trahnael · Dec 17, 2015

There was no real reason she chose that time, that moment, to leave her apartment, but it was like something out in the storm just begged for her to go outside. Something heavy tugged on her chest, and she couldn't ignore the feelings this bad weather was causing. She had good and bad memories of the strong rain, and she couldn't shake them off no matter how hard she tried.

Her mind screamed at her. Pressured her. 'Lochlann-- this rain is bad for him! You have to find him..!' it said. They haven't seen each other in weeks, but it was just as Leon had said: she still cared for him. And her fear for him drove her to finally charge into the storm.

Adelene brought an umbrella, but just seconds under the strong rain was enough to prove that she didn't need it, or rather, it didn't help at all at keeping her safe and dry from this kind of weather. So she got rid of it. Everything was cold, even with her windbreaker on. And her knee-length jeans were starting to feel heavy as they clung on her legs, wet.

It was dark, and scary. But that only pushed Adelene to go on rather than back. The clawing worry grew in her chest as all kinds of thoughts began to fill her mind, but she pushed them away, as she moved forward, hoping things won't end up like the last times it rained...

Adelene heard a whisper through the storm all of a sudden, despite the rain screaming against her ears. She squinted, trying to recognize the figure standing in the distance past the wind and the water on her face. But it was only after a couple more steps forward did she recognize him. That it was Lochlann.

Her eyes widened. And then, as if her body switched to Automatic, Adelene sprinted forward, stopping only once she was right in front of him, able to look him in the eyes. She was so worried, and suddenly, she was slightly angry, because why the hell was he out in the rain when both of them knew--

She swallowed whatever she wanted to say. She wasn't one to talk, since she was here, too, being stupid like him. She gasped against the cold, before finally speaking, "We gotta get out of this rain..."

ReD · Dec 17, 2015

It was Addy.

She ran towards him and something in Lochlann responded to this. It's Addy she's running towrads me she needs me because--

No.

Part of him was glad she didn't turn and run the other way. Lochlann didn't think he could stop himself from chasing her if she did. The rain turned something over in his stomach. Beads of water dripped down his face and into the splattering of rain against the walkways.

"I can't," Lochlann said. "Addy I came to tell you that I'm leaving. I wanted to know--"

It sounded stupid now that he was about to say it and Lochlann found himself choking on the words. But, then, his head jerked back like an animal, tilted to the side, hearing something far away, and his eyes widened and his lips tightened into a straight line. He reached out and grabbed her hand.

"We have to go somewhere," he said. "Fast. Somewhere not here."

His hand was burning against hers as though he had a fever, but that was impossible, because Lochlann was not sick.

He looked at her, studying her face, and his own expression betrayed him.

Lochlann was not asking her to trust him. He was asking for the exact opposite. He wanted her to run away but he wanted her because he was scared and she was the only one he knew to run to. She was the only one he still trusted.

He didn't know where to go.

He was lost.

He tilted his head and looked behind them. He frowned.

"We need to move now," he said. He dropped her hand, realizing his mistake, and Lochlann turned and headed further into the storm.

Trahnael · Dec 17, 2015

She realized, he was on his way to see her after all, and she didn't know what to think of that.

"Leaving..? But where... where will you go..?" Adelene's breathing between her words still sounded much like gasps. The rain was cold, and the water on her face made it a chore to breathe easily. Confused, concerned, she, too, studied his face, that face she hasn't seen in almost a month. She tried to read him. Especially when his eyes widened, and Lochlann grabbed her hand all of a sudden.

She flinched.

Lochlann's big hand was warm, no, hot, and it came back to Adelene clearer, that last time they were together in the rain. Something's wrong, her mind told her, 'Or there will be.'

Stupid Addy followed him anyway. Despite the voice in her head, the butterflies in her stomach, and the bugging feeling of being physically trapped, she followed Lochlann. She just couldn't let him be like this.

"Loch, where are you going..?"

ReD · Dec 17, 2015

Lochlann was moving too quickly. He stopped to make sure Adelene was still with him. The water streamed down his face like tears but it was impossible for him to cry. The air around Lochlann seemed wrong, hazy somehow, like the shimmering heat rising off a hot road in the summer.

He pressed himself up into an alclove beneath a building and motioned for Addy to join him out of the rain. He was still shaking but he was not cold. His eyes studied Adelene and his gaze was intense.

"I need to go somewhere and I want you to come with me," he said. "I need you."

He said, I need you.

What he meant was, I need help.

"Addy I'm--" Lochlann doubled over, clutching his gut, and then onto the wall. He took a deep breath.

"I'm so sorry for everything that happened."

She had such long legs even though she was so much shorter than he was. Lochlann wondered why he'd never noticed. He wondered what they'd feel like on his back. He wondered what she looked like underwater.

Trahnael · Dec 18, 2015

He was fast, and Adelene actually struggled to keep up. When he eyed her, she returned his stare with one slightly puzzled, slightly wary, because that stare didn't feel normal, even though it was from Lochlann.

She couldn't understand him. He said he needed to go somewhere, but what was this place that couldn't wait until the storm goes away?

Why would he need her?

Yet for some reason she couldn't ask him aloud.

She was immediately by his side when he held his stomach, seemingly in pain, and she put a hand over his shoulder out of concern. "Are you hurt?" she asked. She had heard his apology loud and clear, but she couldn't quite whip up a... a good response to it. "Don't apologize now," was what she said, "we can talk about that later. Now what's up?"

ReD · Dec 18, 2015

"I'm not hurt," he said and it wasn't a lie. he wasn't hurt, but he was hurting. There was a semantic difference that he clung to like it was scripture.

She didn't want an apology now. She wanted one later.

But, Lochlann realized, jerking his head back to look into the rain, he wasn't entire sure there was going to be a later. Not if he didn't get out. Not if he didn't try to escape from here.

"Addy listen I don't have a lot of time left," he said. "Someone is coming for me and I'm--"

Scared worried lost without you

"Fuck," he said instead. He gripped his side. He was trying to focus on Addy, Addy, Addy, and not the sound of the rain hitting the asphalt, but that sound was all around him. he watched a bead of water drip down from his nose and onto the ground.

"There's something about me you should know," he said. His eyes were dark black and trained on her face.

This was Addy.

This was Addy.

"Please, come with me," he said. He couldn't keep his thoughts straight. He couldn't think when he knew he was being followed. They had to go. He needed to be safe. He needed Addy.

Trahnael · Dec 19, 2015

Addy still couldn't understand him.

Loch said he didn't have enough time, but there they were, there he was, wasting it with his vagueness. Addy wasn't upset, but she wanted him to tell her already whatever it was he had to say. But she felt that he was serious, she felt how distressed he was aside from that heavy feeling brought by the strong rain.

His face was weird. His eyes were piercing through her skin. But she forced herself to ignore that.

"Lochlann I don't get it..! I'll follow where you want to go so you don't have to worry about that just..."

Stop scaring me like this...

"...get to the point already. If you think something's wrong, then we need to hurry. We'll talk where you think it's safe, okay?"

ReD · Dec 19, 2015

She'd come with him!

Lochlann's heart did something funny. He closed his eyes and rested his head on her shoulder. It was the most intimacy he could share with her any more, though Lochlann realized too late that it might also betray his exhaustion.

"We need to get off of this island," he said.

He could smell her in the rain, like girl and gunoil and the scent of a summer afternoon sitting on the roof.

The wind blew and for a second, Lochlann was pelted with rain again. He shuddered, gasped, groaned.

He heard a noise and jerked. He looked at her, his eyes wide and wild. He knew he had to tell her this now, before it was too late, because he needed to give her a choice.

"Addy, I came to Starlight Academy because I killed my last seven girlfriends," he said. "I didn't mean to and I've regretted it every day of my life. I can't sleep at night. I drink because it makes me sloppy and makes it harder for me to be a good monster, because that's what I am."

His chest was rising and falling and he looked like he'd just been shot, but he swallowed and said, 'I'm telling you this because I don't want to hurt you. I never want to hurt you. But I want you to understand why I need to leave, just for a little bit."

It was getting too hard for him to stay this way, too hard for him to keep on this human shape if he didn't plan on seducing her. The rain was washing away all his illusions.

"Will you still come with me?"

Trahnael · Dec 21, 2015

"......What?"

That... Everything just said was too much to absorb for this very short span of time. Adelene looked like she was lost, but her eyes, staring watching Lochlann as he jerked away from her, did not look troubled, nor afraid. She just looked at him as if he was talking about something impossible, and she couldn't believe him.

Leave? Killed seven girlfriends? Monster?

"But Lochlann... You're always so kind to me. You're no monster, I can't see you that way."

He had problems, he broke her heart, too, and she was still a bit angry. Other than that, there were all kinds of rumors about him in school. But to sweet Addy, Lochlann was still kind. He was her dear friend.

She shook her head. She had probably stared at him for a few seconds and had just snapped out, realizing Lochlann was serious. He did seem like he was being paranoid about being tailed, always looking afar with such suppressed panic in his eyes, while his body looked very prepared to dash.

Addy decided she'd want to keep Lochlann company. But... Leave the island..?

"Hold on hold on hold on," she grabbed on his shirt to get his attention away from whatever he was sensing from afar. "Lochlann, what do you mean by leave the island? Leave Manta Carlos? I... I don't think I can do that." She hoped he wouldn't misunderstand. "You're not a problem. I don't care if you... Well... I do... but you don't scare me, Loch. But if you're saying we have to leave the island... I can't..."

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