It was late. How late, Rhys didn't know, and honestly? He didn't care. He was in a bar, somewhere. A nameless one, because his head was too fuzzy for him to remember the name, and really, they were all the same to him. The people he'd used as an excuse for coming here had all headed home. Except him. He was going straight to one-drink-too-many city, with a stubbornness. Maybe, like this, if he made it so he could barely see or stand, he'd trip and smash his head open on the sidewalk after he was kicked out.
Except, it happened too early. He supposed he wasn't being subtle in his intentions, or, he would've been led to that conclusion if agitation didn't take over, prickling in his shoulders and spine, making him tense up like a wild animal about to strike. No matter how much money he tried to flash at this bartender in order to stay, it was turned down. Security intervention was threatened. You had to be kidding. Surely a joke, a jest, all good fun? Shit.
Rhys pulled a gun from his clothes and fucking shot up the bastard. Touchy touchy Rhys. Who did this jackass think he was, though? Wouldn't be thinking much of anything now, Rhys noted, while he watched him fall and bleed out. No better lesson than blowing your brains out, they couldn't disrespect you if they were dead. It was a victory, for a moment, before the screaming and calling the cops started. No thanks.
He made a run for it. What he'd done catching up with him all the while, breathing shallower, tears burning at the edges of his eyes. Stupid, stupid, fuck! He hated this. He hated himself. He could throw up. Pulling garbage like that yet again, and again, and again. It was never going to stop, was it?
After that, he'd just, felt gross inside and wandered, losing track of... where the hell he was. He didn't know, he didn't care. Found his way to an empty playground in a quieter corner of town, and ended up sitting on the swings like a jackass. Watching the stars. It was really pretty, at least. It was cold, and lonely, and he was fucking miserable, but the sight would make a beautiful painting when he dragged himself home later-- if a serial killer didn't get him first, that is. Was it bad, that he had his hopes? Yeah. It was all bad.