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Leaning her head comfortably against Mir, Lily snuggled in closer and relaxed beside her girlfriend, finding herself comforted once again by their calm disposition and accepting nature. Liliana always found suicide victims difficult to deal with - just because it was often a sad, tortured and often despairing soul that she had to help cross over. A soul that quickly discovers that death was not the answer they had hoped it would be and that they had just made a horribly rash decision that they couldn't (normally) back out of.

"It's just suicide hardly ever brings real peace to the soul, Mir...maybe that's why it bothers me so much..." Liliana sighed as she thought about Tril and everything that had happened since that fateful day. "It is rarely the answer, or at least I haven't seen too many souls of suicide victims that were relieved to be dead," she said she turned her head a little to look at Mir, realising then that they hadn't really elaborated on why they found it less unsettling as she did.

"Can I ask you why it doesn't bother you as much? You and Kir have never really elaborated on that," Lily asked as her gaze met and searched Mir's, clearly wanting to know what they really thought about thw whole Tril thing.

Nestled pleasantly between Mir and Kir, Liliana gently placed a hand on Kir's leg as she continued to lean comfortably against Mir. Lily then listened attentively, and with what could be called as curious fascination, to their rather unique take on the topic of suicide.

"Yes, that's right..." she murmured quietly, not wanting to really interrupt just confirm when they pointed out that Lily had told them that Tril had wanted to return to her world. Which was very true, however, Lily still maintained - at least in her heart - that despite the obvious desire to return home, there had been a sense of real sadness and despair to Tril... beyond what was normal in one that was homesick or experiencing a deep sense of nostalgia.

Listening to how KirMir perceived everything made Liliana purse her lips together thoughtfully while she frowned a little. She had somehow forgotten they had to regenerate every so often, and while this hadn't bothered her too much when they explained the whole process to her, reassuring her that she'd not lose the KirMir she had come to love, the implications of them having to kill each other off and commit suicide became starkly apparent.

"B-but I, you...," Liliana started, stumbled, and then stopped for a moment as she tried to articulate her thoughts properly.

"It's different for you though," she began again as she took Mir's and Kir's hands in hers. "You are not doing it because you are desperate or feel you have nobody who cares for you. You are not trying to escape your life here, hoping to go back to your old life," she explained as she purposefully entwined her fingers lovingly through theirs, remembering now forgotten parts of her worrying conversation with Tril.

As Kir brought their entwined hands up to his lips, Liliana couldn't help but feel a huge surge of relief mixed with love and affection when she felt his lips against her skin. She hadn't reaised until today just how much Tril's "failed" suicide attempt had affected her.

Yes, she knew KirMir was content with their life here, and one not given to acts of impulsive recklessness, but some part of her had begun to think about the loneliness they - or anyone really - from another world or dimension might feel. Tril's despondency and words about how lonely and out of place she felt had made Liliana, when she was alone with her thoughts, question and worry about people in her life and if they were happy or not.

"I understand, Mir," Lily said in a soft, heartfelt voice. "It's just a part of who you are, and what you have to do to be here with me..." she murmured quietly as she lightly squeezed their hands.

"I guess we should probably go and see Tril soon," Liliana suggested, a little uncertain still that she was making the right decision. She had heard the whispered gossip that Tril had not been happy about reemerging where she had attempted dying, and was sort of worried that the fog demon would somehow blame her for not being able to go back home.

Liliana laughed at Kir's suggestion and flashed him (and Mir) a smile. Yes, KirMir was probably right, she didn't anticipate her reencounter with Tril to be overly amicable. Although she did hope the fog demon was alright, Lily could only guess how disappointed Tril had been to find herself back on Manta Carlos instead of back where she came from.

"Yes, that's true, I guess," Liliana agreed thoughtfully as she let Mir, along with Kir, lead her out of their apartment. "I guess part of me still worries about her, that she might try it again," she told them as she grabbed comfortably onto Mir's arm as they accompanied her to the school, flanking her as they normally did, one body on each side of her.

"I think it's upstairs," Liliana said as the three of them made their way to one of the school lounges where Tril (and her school counselor) had agreed to meet Liliana that afternoon.

Sitting down at the table with KirMir at her sides, Liliana gave the counsellor a friendly nod in greeting. She had seen the woman before around the school and knew that she tended to be one of the more helpful and understanding counselors.

Looking at Tril, meeting her gaze while trying to ignore the fact that the fog demon had chosen Liliana's image once again, Lily quickly realised that she was very relieved and glad to see her alive, but also a bit guilty, resentful, and even angry with them. It was a very strange mix of emotions that caught the psychopomp totally off guard, and which she quickly tried to push to one side.

"Hi..." Lily answered, somewhat surprised to hear Tril's calm voice. In fact, she had been bracing herself for Tril to be angry, resentful or accusatory. Or at least something more aggressive than a simple hello.

"How are you feeling?" Liliana began as she instinctively sought Mir's hand out under the table. "I wanted to come earlier, but they suggested I wait," she explained as she kept her gaze calmly fixed on Tril.