Private Finished False Alarm!

Adelene had woken up in a bedroom she didn't know, and she was sweaty and dirty and bare. And then she looked around, and she had found a man he's only met the night before-- sleeping beside her, and he was also sweaty and full of claw marks and bare. She realized what had happened, and rushed to cloth herself and run away from the place.

That was more or less a week ago. Her anxiety had subsided as the days passed, but stubbornly lingered because of one detail from that sinful night. And then her due came, but nothing showed, and it has been days since then and still nothing has happened.

Her period hasn't come even though it should already have a few days ago.

Matt didn't use protection that night.

Adelene knew somehow what this meant, but she was too scared to confirm its truth on her own. She was panicking inside, even though she still went to school and went on with her registration and other paperwork as if everything was normal. The anxious strain on her face, however, revealed that it wasn't. She usually didn't lose her cool like this, but Adelene has never experienced sex before Matt, and now she's realized that her impulsive act might ruin her life.

She didn't welcome the idea of having a little Addy just yet.

She was on her way home when a familiar figure crossed her line of sight. It was Matt, and if Addy wanted to go home then she should either pass by him or climb the roof. She wasn't feeling well enough to do the second option, so she dared to walk past him.

She was going to ignore him. She wasn't going to tell him her worries. What happened between them was nothing more than temporary comfort from their loneliness, but Addy faced even worse matters now, and she regretted she's even done it with Matt in the first place.

She walked right past him as if he wasn't there.
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Addy flinched at hearing her name. Of course he'd speak to her. Of course there was no way they could pretend that it didn't happen. Addy wanted to run away again, to act as if she didn't hear his apology, but she was partly at fault for that mistake and maybe it would do her and him some good to talk a little.

She faced Matt, she went closer, but she didn't look at him in the face.

"It's not like you forced me," she said quietly. "I wanted it that time. But... I do apologize, too. Especially for leaving without waking you up. It felt... really weird."

I'm sorry I made you a substitute.

What happened actually didn't matter now, to be honest. What mattered now was that what they'd done had an effect on her, and thank god somehow that they found the opportunity to talk like this because Addy couldn't bear to do this alone even if she had previously believed that she could... "Matt, I'm scared that... I could be pregnant."

Matt was being too accepting and kind and gentle and it made Addy so fucking disgusted at herself and it felt like she couldn't blame him at all and these feelings melted her stomach like acid.

If there's a child they'd raise them, he said?? "Fuck no!" Adelene slapped both of his hands off her shoulders. Tears began to form in the corners of her eyes, eyes that narrowed with anxiety and fear and disgust and regret.

She had snapped.

"If there's a child I'll get an abortion and there's nothing you can do to stop me," she said. She had already made up her mind; from the very beginning it was already the easiest solution she's could think of, if there would ever be a need for one.

She couldn't bear a child. She couldn't. She couldn't let a child live and grow up into this world and end up to be like her. It cannot happen.

She was panicking and she couldn't even think of the possibility that this could only be a mistake and maybe she was overreacting. She needed to calm down, but how could she when she had nobody to rely on for this? She had approached Lochlann but nothing happened there, and there was no way she'd tell her brother. Matt was the closest she had for comfort, and it frustrated her that having a child was okay for him.

She looked away. "Sorry," she murmured, realizing that he didn't deserve her outburst just now. "I want to know for sure, Matt. Please come with me. I'm scared."

And she had no idea how this works and what to do.

She... didn't know what to feel about this.

She was angry and disgusted, mostly at herself, and also full of regret. But Matt was so gentle and careful towards her that it made her seem like such a horrible person. She wasn't sure how to respond to his embrace. Her judgement was no longer influenced by lust or alcohol, which made any contact with him feel strange and different.

Her hands moved awkwardly between them before settling to hold onto his shirt. And then gently pushing him away. She wasn't exactly excited to be hugged or to hug him back.

It was hurting her bad that he was being genuinely nice.

"Is there no other way to find out?" Addy really didn't know. Her entire life before Manta Carlos only involved fighting and running away and more fighting, so something like this was completely out of her field. Besides, she couldn't wait for an appointment with a doctor. Waiting meant expecting something and that was only going to be excruciating. "I mean... I don't know anything about this. There's... There's that thing that... what was it... a tester?" She was making a a small but long shape in the air with her fingers, and she tried to get her words out without looking at Matteo in the eyes. Her pupils were slightly trembling. "Well... I'm not exactly assuming you'd know--" since he was male, after all, "--but... I also have no idea where to get it or how to use it."

He answered her, and the fact that he told her he was going to be there even just for this-- buying something she didn't know and was actually pretty embarrassed to do so alone-- began to make it feel like they will be alright. Addy made a small smile of relief. She was still anxious, but not so much anymore that she'd snap at him again.

In the back of her mind, she thought she was lucky Matt was kind. That this guy she met so randomly at a bar wasn't some jerk who'd leave her or even pretend he wouldn't know her; he was the opposite and that lightened the feeling of Addy's chest greatly.

"Good," she spoke softly, raising her head for a moment just to catch Matt's eyes, to see how softly they looked at her. "I guess we should... uh... move out of the streets then. Where do we go? To buy... that thing, I mean."

She rubbed the back of her neck awkwardly, and decided to start walking, even if she didn't have any idea where they needed to go. She stayed close, though, in hopes to let Matt understand that she wasn't... well, she wasn't angry at him.

"I don't really blame you though," she muttered beside him. "And I'm glad you're a good person. So thanks. If... If everything turns out okay, maybe we can hang out somewhere."