"I know I'm only 12... but in my mind I'm beyond it. I know it seems foolish to be in love at my age. But I never felt so... so.. loved in his arms. His kindness so sweet and so dear. And then to have him come back, and then to hear him say he cared for me. October it's... it's the most wonderful thing that's ever happened to me. And if I lose it and go back into the deep darkness from such a glorious feeling. My heart might not be able to take it. I'd either lock myself away from the world, or kill myself." She said with a few sobs....
The Forbidden..... whatever...
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October frowned a bit again, listening to what she said. "Whatever you do, please don't kill yourself..." she said quietly. She was silent for a few moments, biting the inside of her lip, trying to think of something else she could say to make her new friend feel better. She cracked her knuckles out of habit as she thought, then finally started speaking.
"Moria... well, if he leaves, look at this... you said that he said that he cared for you, right? If he leaves, I don't think either of you will be happy..." She wasn't sure if that would help at all, and regretted saying it for a few moments. "And even if he leaves, there are other people that care, and other people that are going to care..."
"Moria... well, if he leaves, look at this... you said that he said that he cared for you, right? If he leaves, I don't think either of you will be happy..." She wasn't sure if that would help at all, and regretted saying it for a few moments. "And even if he leaves, there are other people that care, and other people that are going to care..."
"I guess I won't kill myself.... but I know I could never be happy.... And why live if you can't be happy?" She said with a sigh... She stopped crying.... "I'd probably go goth and kill people daily if I did live." She said with a sigh....
She was relieved when Moria said she wouldn't kill herself, but was still upset by the rest of what she said. "Well, maybe you will turn out to be happy," she said quietly, almost inaudibly. "But even so... how would killing people make you feel better?" She tilted her head to the side in confusion, waiting for a response. She was curious as to why she would do that, or how it would solve her pain...
"Well I'd probably become some mad man hater and start killing men who hurt women." She said looking down... If Sonlath had heard that it obiviously would've brought Amelia to mind. Moria looked at the window, she got out of the bed walking slowly to it she sat in a chair next to it. "I think I'd be too hurt and cut myself from all emotion living in a shack in the middle of the wilderness." If Sonlath heard that too it would've brought his mind to how Amelia lived in a cabin in the middle of nowhere she killed men and seemed to cut off emotion.
October still didn't understand how killing men would make her feel better, but she decided not to say anything. She watched as Moria stood up and walked over to a chair, and a look of concern came over he face. "Are you well enough to walk?" she asked quietly.
She frowned for a moment when she mentioned living in the wilderness living away from everything. That was probably a good thing, since sometimes, being around people was better than staying away. She didn't comment on that either, though, and was silent for a few more moments.
"Hey, Moria?" she asked softly. "I just wanted to know... is there anything I can do to help you feel better? Like, to help you get your mind off of the boy, your ankle, anything?" She smiled somewhat. She knew she had sort of changed the subject, but she just wanted to know if there was anything she could do to make the girl feel at least a little bit happier.
She frowned for a moment when she mentioned living in the wilderness living away from everything. That was probably a good thing, since sometimes, being around people was better than staying away. She didn't comment on that either, though, and was silent for a few more moments.
"Hey, Moria?" she asked softly. "I just wanted to know... is there anything I can do to help you feel better? Like, to help you get your mind off of the boy, your ankle, anything?" She smiled somewhat. She knew she had sort of changed the subject, but she just wanted to know if there was anything she could do to make the girl feel at least a little bit happier.
"No.... there isn't.." She looked out the window sadly. She looked depressed, she looked beyond depressed she was pale and sad. "You can go now..." She said in a emotionless voice. She realized Sonlath probably wasn't coming back. She put herself in a emotionless state so she wouldn't kill herself...
Sonlath grunted right before leaving the nurses office and walked back not really knowing why...he just felt sorry for her and walked into her room with another sigh. "You can go now Oct...I finished what I had to do..." He said his ciggarette was no where near his hand...
Moria wanted to run to him and hug him, but decided to stay low key since he didn't know that she loved him. Or so she thought... She sat in the chair her eyes staying fixed out the window she wanted so much to let Sonlath know what she felt. But hadn't the courage to tell. She didn't want to cry again, she already had cried almost every minute in the hospital. She stayed quiet waiting silently for Addie to leave so she could either tell Sonlath or something... She had butterflies in her stomach. She loved him so but didn't know how to tell it.
October frowned a bit when Moria said there was nothing she could do. "Well..." she began in a quiet voice, "if there ever is, let me know." She nodded a bit when she said she could leave now, and wanted to ask if she was sure, then noticed Sonlath enter the room. She decided it would be best to go, since they both wanted her to, and she thought they should kind of talk.
She exited the room in silence.
She exited the room in silence.