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Tomo had barely gotten herself out of the community center and into a cat before she had collapsed under a nearby tree. But she wasn't feeling like sleeping. She felt like crying. And goddammit, she never cried! This was humiliating, stupid!
And Tomo deserved every bit of it.
Tomo curled up and if cats could sob she'd probably sound something like that.

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Tadashi had been torn on whether or not to follow Tomo out of the community center. She obviously needed some help but she had kept denying that she wanted any. He remained a little while as he tried to help Jii but he knew he was the wrong person to do it. When Roldan stepped in to be the caring adult figure it was a welcome relief.

Tadashi then was free to head out after his sister. He still didn't know what he was going to do but he'd just figure it out when he found her.

'She said she was going to sleep in a tree...' he thought as he hopped out of the window. Her familiar scent was still in the air so she must not have made it too far. Following the scent it wasn't too long before he spotted the ball of white fur curled up under the tree. She was definitely upset and making heart-breaking noises. Not something Tadashi planned to mention.

Tadashi didn't call out or warn her of his approach. Instead he walked up and plopped down beside her. "I'm here sis. Talk to me or don't, but i'm here," he meowed softly
 

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Tomo smelled Tadashi well before he plopped down beside her, offering support. That was so much like Tadashi and it hurt. The kindness hurt: Tomo didn't deserve that kindness. And still she flipped onto her other side and stayed curled up, but was now curled up against Tadashi. She stopped sobbing and instead just stared at Tadashi's tail blankly.
"Ya know, it was so obvious she liked like that. She was blushin' and shit and when she actually confessed I... I was such an asshole. I was the kinda person I hate, the one that leads ya on and says they like ya like that too. But...she was so happy, ya know? I thought I liked her like that too. I really did. I wanted to. 'Cos Jii deserved that someone liked her back. I didn't deserve her, not by a long shot. Someone like me... Someone...dirty...doesn't deserve anyone. Someone like me. I shoulda just been axed down...I really do bring bad luck..."
Maybe it was the lack of sleep but Tomomi just let it all out. She was too tired to set any walls or boundaries so she just puked it all out. And at the end of it she was staring at her own feet, or the foot that lacked two toes. Tomo could still feel the axe chopping them off, could taste her owner's blood in her mouth.
 

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Tadashi felt her flip over and curl against him. It was a comforting feeling even for him. He hoped it was helping her.

Tadashi meowed calmly, low enough that it was clear that his words were for her and her alone. "We're still getting used to being people. I don't know about you but I've never been in that kind of relationship with anyone. You two seemed pretty happy together to me. Just because you took a while to figure out your feelings doesn't mean you led her on. She'll find someone that does like her like that. So will you." He curled up against her so that he could keep watch for anyone approaching. This was private and he wasn't letting anyone chase Tomo away right now.

"Someone like... No! Stop that Tomomi," he was suddenly and uncharacteristically stern for a moment and his tail flicked. "You are not dirty and you sure as hell don't deserve to be attacked."

Tadashi calmed himself back to normal again. He wasn't really angry with her, he just needed to be clear that she didn't deserve anything like she was saying. "Look at me Tomo," he said in his normal warm and caring voice, "You are a wonderful person who is still learning. We're all still learning- that's why we're in school."
 

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Tomo wanted to curl up smaller and smaller until she disappeared. Or she wanted someone to take out the trash. Both worked.
Tomo heard Tadashi's words but at the moment she really wasn't in the right mood to believe them. But she stashed them away to ponder later. Right now she just curled closer against Tadashi and turned her head enough to look at Tadashi when he asked her to do so.
Tomo sat up a bit, the tiredness still in her eyes but little on the side now.
"It's still my fault for playin' with somethin' I wasn't familiar with. I always get cocky, ya know? It frustrates me that my body's so small but I feel older. Bein' a cat is simpler. Or bein' dead..."
The rest of the sentence fades away, barely discernible.
 

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His words didn't appear to be working all that well. That was pretty damn discouraging but this wasn't about how he felt. Maybe Tadashi was coming at this all wrong. He wanted so much to try to fix the problem but it didn't look like that was going to work. He visibly winced when Tomo mentioned being dead.

"Trust me sis, I know more than anyone how being a cat is simpler. I've tried going back but it doesn't work. We're people now and we have to deal with people stuff. You got in over your head by accident. It happens. In some ways we are like children and in others we aren't. It sucks," he agreed with her.

"However, mention being dead one more time and i'm gonna bite ya," he said playfully as he bumped his head into hers.
 

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Tomo was too depressed to notice she had hurt Tadashi with her words, and if she had noticed it would've made her even more depressed.
But Tadashi's words did have an effect. Tomo raised her head a bit and another cat could tell she was smiling a bit.
"I know I'm bein' a complete downer now, bro. But thanks for stickin' with me anyway. I just...need to mope now. Really roll in it. I don' actually wanna be dead. I only feel like I'll never be able to wash my hands, paws, whatever, of the one who is."
Tomo was referring to her owner, who she killed. Tadashi knew of it, Tomo figured he'd guess what she was talking about.
"An' if ya bite me I'll let ya. I figure I'd deserve it if it came from ya."
Tomo sounded a bit, just a bit, more cheery and cat grinned at Tadashi.
 

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The tiny bits of a smile and slightly less gloomy attitude were plenty for Tadashi. He didn't expect her to suddenly stop feeling bad. It was going to take time and that was ok.

"That's fine, you mope around as much as you want. Cry, get angry, yell- whatever you need to do. I'll still be right here. Might head for cover though if you start throwing things," he grinned as much as a cat can and then he leaned forward to give her a light nibble on the ear. "We survive, that's what we alley cats do. You're allowed to have regrets but there was nothing else to be done."

He knew exactly what she was referencing, heck he had very similar feelings about his own owner and his hadn't been in the middle of attacking with an axe when he was killed. He was not going to try to tell her to forget about it or move on or anything else like that. It was something painful for her and he planned to just listen and be supportive.
 

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Tomo laughed weakly when Tadashi expected her to throw a tantrum. But instead she just draped herself on top of Tadashi and cat sighed.
"I don't got the energy to throw anythin'. I know I'm a brat but even I got calm lapses. Right now I just wanna lay here."
Tomo turned her head to stare at Tadashi's tail again.
"I don't wanna go back to just a cat. If I did I would regret all of it. I wanna stay here, as a person, with you an' all these weirdos on this island."
Tomo cat scoffed a bit and licked Tadashi's fur a bit.
"I'm so glad I found ya. Ya know that right?"
 

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Tadashi accepted his fate and let Tomo lay on top of him. "Lay away, haven't got any other plans for the day anyways. Even if I did, not anymore." He purred and his tail flicked happily. It actually wasn't a bad day to be outside. It wasn't raining and it was warm enough.

"All of the weirdos here? Now I know you've lost your mind," he joked. "I'm glad you want to be a person. I don't know what it would have been like here without you and i'm glad I don't have to worry about that. I know you're glad to have found me- otherwise you'd be missing out on the most comfortable pillow of all time right about now." Tadashi sounded very content despite the emotional reason for their chat. He laid his head down as if he was going to sleep, but he was keep a sharp eye on their surroundings. Any other time he probably would have relaxed and let the sleep come but he was not feeling very sleepy at the moment.
 
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