Yuki sobbed big, ugly sobs as he sprinted, blind, out of the community center. His breath came in ragged gasps, choking him as he gasped. He looked like an absolute fool, but he didn't care - he was one.
"Dammit! Dammit! Dammit!!!!" He whispered, squeezing his eyes tight as he ran.
Why was he crying? He didn't deserve it. Other people had gone through worse. Other people had worse things done to them. Other people had to suffer through so much more than he had. He wasn't allowed to cry. He wasn't allowed to feel sadness. He was rich; he had a family; he had friends...
He didn't deserve anything. This stupid body of his kept leaking tears all over the place, bringing shame to himself, bringing shame to his family, bringing shame to everyone around him. He didn't deserve to feel down. He didn't deserve to cry. He didn't deserve to whine.
And yet he couldn't do anything about it. He couldn't bring himself to do anything about it. And so he ran. He ran deep into the woods, into the trails, away. Anywhere but here. He could hear Gabe calling after him, but he couldn't face him. Not now. He couldn't burden him any further. He didn't deserve him. He didn't deserve his kindness. He didn't deserve his friendship.
He tripped on a root and tumbled down the undergrowth, sobbing louder as he went. It hurt. He was scared. He hated himself. Everything needed to disappear... or maybe he should disappear.
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"Dammit! Dammit! Dammit!!!!" He whispered, squeezing his eyes tight as he ran.
Why was he crying? He didn't deserve it. Other people had gone through worse. Other people had worse things done to them. Other people had to suffer through so much more than he had. He wasn't allowed to cry. He wasn't allowed to feel sadness. He was rich; he had a family; he had friends...
He didn't deserve anything. This stupid body of his kept leaking tears all over the place, bringing shame to himself, bringing shame to his family, bringing shame to everyone around him. He didn't deserve to feel down. He didn't deserve to cry. He didn't deserve to whine.
And yet he couldn't do anything about it. He couldn't bring himself to do anything about it. And so he ran. He ran deep into the woods, into the trails, away. Anywhere but here. He could hear Gabe calling after him, but he couldn't face him. Not now. He couldn't burden him any further. He didn't deserve him. He didn't deserve his kindness. He didn't deserve his friendship.
He tripped on a root and tumbled down the undergrowth, sobbing louder as he went. It hurt. He was scared. He hated himself. Everything needed to disappear... or maybe he should disappear.
@ArcanaFate