everyone dies (eve)

Der Lampman

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@"Evelyn Pierce"

Aurelia let out a deep breath, basking in the quite unfamilar warmth. After her church burned down, she spent the next few days sleeping out in the cold, and when she had enoughh sense to book a room somewhere, she ended up hanging herself.

As the warmth died down, she let her own wings out, and people out on the street probably wondered why that particular window was glowing golden. The warmth of the light felt even more alien to her - the last time she'd brought those wings out was decades ago, as she fell from the sky and felt her power and world ripped out of her both literal and figurative grasp.

The light disappeared, and she closed her eyes, thinking. This was maybe the first chance for her to stop her spiral - and if she didn't grab on, it was her last. Clouded as her thoughts were, she still wasn't nearly blind enough to realize that her current path, this unfaithful life, would lead to her further disgrace and eventual destruction, and she knew she was close to the point of no return.

She also knew she couldn't say yes to that offer.

"No," she began. "I have stained the honor of my family and my father enough by attempting what I have. I cannot further stain that honor by introducing my sin to others."

She took the card and folded it into Azeria's hand once more, and she placed that hand onto her chest. "I, however, am nowhere near stupid enough to not recognize the state I am in. And I also am nowhere near blind enough to think that I am the only damaged one in this room."

"I refuse to be helped by a group of any sort. She who will help me after all will be my sister, and I will only allow such a bond with one I can trust. I... I may be mistaken, but I will place my good faith in you... you who have felt pain similar to mine and took a path unlike mine."
 

Evelyn

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@"Der Lampman"

"No, I am not someone that you want to cling to. I am the last person that you should seek comfort in. While I am in pain yes. And I am mourning true. But you must think that I am also a person that has practically given up on immortality. If you go to the group I will also attend. It will be a time for us to spend with each other and others."

Azeria was doing it again and she knew this. She knew perfectly well that she was shoving the other woman aside because she truly didnt care for help. Wallowing in her self-pity was all she ever desired. Drugs, alcohol.. Even sex with strangers for cash.. It was her way of self destruction since death did nothing for her. She would only wake back up several hours later.. Shaking with need to take another hit..

Knowing you have a problem was far different that actually dealing with it and learning to coup with it were two different things in and of itself... This was a case of the prior.
 

Der Lampman

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@"Evelyn Pierce"

"No," Aurelia said simply. She was not going to let up - enough people knew of her weakness as it stood. Further disgrace would not lead her anywhere good.

Her eyes closed, brows furrowing in thought. There was more to this issue than could be resolved by a simple stubborn denial. And there was more to be gained here than company. This was a chance... the first she'd had in decades.

The next thoughts she had were rather heated, and she let them resound in Azeria's mind, speaking straight into her brain and ignoring the senses. "I will cling to who I choose to cling to, and I will not take comfort in you. What I will do is... try to face reality - as you have. Your presence, I will make into a reminder, and you, I will make into a friend. They will not understand my loss as you will."
 

Evelyn

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@"Dalamadur"

Pain. That's all that there was within her mind. A swirling vortex a cloud, a fog, a choking miasma. Though there was minor alteration in her mind from the drugs that were within her system at the time. It was as if they did little to dull or even take it away. The only thoughts in her mind appeared to be on some kind of forced repeat. There was nothing stopping these thoughts. Images. memories.

Death. The death and horrific images of which humanity had to offer were everywhere. A cacophony of screams that echoed forever in her mind. It was not safe there.

If that is Aurelia blocked it all out then that was a good thing, the less that anyone knew of the misery on the inside the better. It was Azeria's mental montage, hell she was still trying to hide her addiction but it was a pathetically failing ideal.

"Fine. Aurelia. Stay out of my head. That is my only condition."

Her tone was indeed heated in return but, she wanted to just have her head back to herself again.
 
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