A Blind Body, A Seeing Soul

"I wasn't trying to make fun of you, I'm sorry if I came off that way. I understand if you find it hard to trust me, though.."

"I'm sorry, it's just... hard." She said with a sigh, she felt her way to a log and sat on it. She sighed again, "I have had a bad day, Sorry if I was a bit rude." She said apoligetically. She lowered her head, she just wanted the day to end and to not have to deal with living in such a way that she saw or knew very little.

If she could only see she'd be able to think about other things, but all that was in her world was sounds, actions, and blankness. No memories she could imagine. No things she could picture, all blank like a black void. She heard things and remembered them, but she had nothing but sounds in her head and nothing to put them to. Her eyes could stare at nothing, nor could they see or watch anything to keep her mind off of things. Her mind was a audio track constantly repeating and she couldn't focus on one thing without another coming up.

"No no it's fine, really. Um.. May I ask your name? I'm Paul."

"Ellia." She said extending a hand, it was a bit away from him, but he could see it and move it towards him when they shook hands. She sighed, "I wish I could only try to explain how hard it is to not see." She sighed again. "I mean, I've never saw anything, not even the slightest thing. I have no real memories to think back on. Only voices..." She said her face looked down hearted.

"Ellia is a beautiful name. Well, I have glasses.. and without them I can barely see anything. But I guess that doesn't compare to not being able to see at all.. I'm sorry, I guess I'm not really helping."

"No one really can help, I was born blind. I've never seen anything but nothing. How can that be helped? I've spend all my life staring ar dark void, people always talking about this and that but I'm never able to see it. As much as I want to see someone or the sunlight and sunset or flowers or other things I can't." She sighed, "Nobody who's seen things can understand how much it hurts to not see anything and still live in a void. And when you fall have people laugh at you. Even if vision is distorted at least one can see something other than a pitch black void. It's almost as if it's a taste of hell, I've heard it's pitch black down there. No light... Nothing but sounds and torment." She said with a sigh.

"Well, I guess you have a point there. But I can't see why people would make fun of you. You don't even have any control over it. I'm sorry you are stuck in such a terrible situation. But technology is advancing so fast these days.. maybe they'll find a way to fix it?"

"I'm not a broken toy, things like a human body aren't so easily fixed." She sighed, "Besides humans are only humans, if I put my sight or life in the hands of humans they could make a worse mistake." She sighed, her hand folded in her lap. She was a odd girl she seemed to hate life but yet she didn't. She just wished so much that she could have a life she'd heard about with words. She wanted to be able to see the world and yet that was very impossible to her.

There was a silence in the air that was deep, she had nothing to look at or think about. She was just so empty of what others had seen and done in their life. She wanted to see things but she couldn't.