Alexel was silent for a few moments. She bit her lip, wondering if she would sound foolish if she spoke her reasons. He might not understand... but it was worth a try. "I want him to notice me," she said, looking Silver in the eye. "I want him to respect me and actually think of me as an equal, not just another person he has to put up with..." She paused. "Even if it brings misfortune, even if it brings trouble... as long as he respects me and actually hears what I say, I'm fine with it..."