The tensions like a fire

Gabe reached the courtyard panting and drenched in his own sweat. There were beads rolling off his forehead and his hair was stuck to it. It wasn't a pretty sight but at the moment he couldn't really bring himself to care. He rested his hands on his knees and bent over trying to cause his ragged breathing to return to normal.

Even though he was quite fit, it had been a long enough run to catch up with William and the heat hadn't helped at all. He couldn't even understand how William had gotten this far ahead of him.

After Bill had left the café, Gabe had let out a long loud groan before running out of the place without a second glance at August or Sebastian. He hadn't even cared about the waiter who wondered where they were going and who was going to pay for the food.

"Bill, wait up," Gabe panted, running over to the boy. "Please. We have to talk about this, we can't just leave it like that...." He put a hand on his boyfriend's shoulder to stop him walking off. Poor Gabe just wanted to make things right. He knew he messed up majorly by not taking Bill's side against Sebastian. He wanted to try redeem himself and regain the boy's trust.

Gabe was smart enough to know that everything was miles away from being alright. He knew the second he saw the anger blazing in William's eyes that this was going to go way further south than he had ever imagined was possible.

Gabe drew his band back as if he had just been bitten. The smack itself hadn't hurt so much as the intention behind it. Gabe frowned as William told him to go away. Usually he might try and plead with the boy, or do whatever he thought would appease Bill but this time he was going to stand his ground. He folded his arms, "No. I'm not leaving. Not 'till we talk this through."

"I'm not happy, not one bit. " Gabriel snapped, getting progressively more annoyed about the fact that William had decided to blame this on him . He knew he had made some mistakes but it wasn't as if he was the one who had kissed somebody else! "That's why I fucking ran all the way after you," Gabe scowled, "to try and make things right. But you're not even going to listen to a word I say are you?!"

Poor Gabriel hadn't realised when he'd first decided to go after William what kind of hell he'd be in for. But the penny had definitely dropped now. He suddenly gulped realising he had just snapped at William and that was definitely not going to help redeem himself. Then again did I ever have a chance to begin with? Gabe laughed out loud, the sort of laugh someone might make if they were trapped on a ship that was going to sink and they knew they were going to die.

"Actually how fucking dare you? " Gabe's voice was dangerously cold, and blunt. "Do you think if I was an idiot I would have realised I made a mistake? If I was an idiot I wouldn't have come after you into the bathroom, I would have just left the building. "

Or maybe I am an idiot for coming after him. What do they say again? 'People do stupid things for love'. And really that was the main reason Gabe had come out after William, even if it wasn't the smartest decision it was the one that he thought might save their relationship. It was the one he had chosen because he was in love with William. It was just completely unfortunate that William couldn't see that.

Gabe was fully aware that there was no way out of this. He was also completely certain that William was far from calm, no matter how skillful the boy was at pulling a poker face.

All of a sudden Gabe could feel fear coursing through his veins, weighing him down. He could feel his heartbeat speeding up, as if it were on overdrive. He didn't think he'd ever felt afraid of his boyfriend before. He had often felt a little bit apprehensive at how William might react to things but usually it was manageable.

However right now there were memories flooding back to Gabriel about William telling him that he had drove a boy insane, nearly killed him. He had done the same to Gabriel's friend but he had stopped before it had gotten past the point of no return. Before today Gabe had never believed that William would turn on him, he'd always been comforted by the thought that the boy loved him too much to do that.

The manner in which William was glaring at him in suggested that the boy would very much like to kill Gabriel right now. Gabe had the impression that William wasn't just angry; William despised him. In fact him thinking that William hated his guts right now would most likely be an understatement .

Sure William was not physically strong enough to fight Gabriel. In a physical fight Gabe would definitely win, if he wanted to. But mentally William could ruin Gabe within a few minutes. That thought freaked Gabe out very very much at the moment.

Gabe knew he was making a scene; he simply couldn't give two fucks at the moment. He had known that snapping at William would only make things worse but he hadn't cared. Things had already gone too deep once this argument had began in the courtyard, at least in Gabe's eyes. So he'd decided to stop tiptoeing around Bill and just get things off his chest. Now he was going to have to deal with the consequences of that.

"You'd rather I'd just left you alone? " Gabe couldn't wrap his head around that one. With previous experiences the worst thing to do was to leave William alone, as the boy craved attention and hated to be ignored. So Gabe had incorrectly assumed that this situation would be the same. Perhaps he should have thought about it more before running headfirst into it, but that was Gabe's problem he didn't think before acting.

Usually Gabe loved to be close to William, it was when he felt safest and most comfortable. But when the boy yanked Gabe towards him, Gabe felt the polar opposite of safe. "I don't care. According to you I'm already an idiot anyway, what difference does it make how much of one I am? " Gabe gulped and dropped his eyes from William's glare. He couldn't take it.

Normally hearing a laugh out of William and receiving a smile would be a sign that Gabe had taken the correct turn but this time it only caused to root the fear even deeper. It was extremely worrying to see how much William was enjoying the feeling of terror that was engulfing poor Gabriel.

'I just don't want to be around you . ' Gabe physically winced as William spoke those cruel words; it was like he'd been stung. It was a blow that Gabe probably deserved, considering the circumstances. But that didn't stop the fact that it hurt .

Gabe hated the fact that William held all the power in this situation. He despised it with every fibre of his being but there was nothing Gabe could do to change it. It was true that he could apologise, although he didn't think it'd help at all. He hadn't gotten the chance to apologise yet anyway, and it felt too late to say it now. In Gabe's eyes coming after William had been a sign that he was sorry, although William was clearly not under the same illusion.

When his boyfriend pushed him away Gabe almost let out a quiet sigh of relief. It felt just a little bit safer to not be so close to him right now. Unfortunately he barely had time to exhale before William rounded on him again. If Gabe had believed things couldn't get any worse, he had been very very wrong.

"What the hell?! Is this what this is about?" Gabe did not like what he was being accused of one bit. Of course he didn't mind William having friends, he was fine with that. But to him it seemed like August and William had been getting on far better than people who were just friends would. "I'm fine with you having friends. What I'm not fine with is you kissing said friends, <i> on the lips </i>!"


"And I realised afterwards that it was an accident and you didn't mean to do it and that's why I wanted to come after you to apologise for giving out. " Gabe continued, "I'm sorry I caused a scene in the restaurant and I know that is why you think I'm such a jealous bastard but maybe if you could try and put yourself in my situation you'd see why I reacted like that? " Gabe shook his head, there was no way William was going to be able to see where Gabe was coming from.

" That's not what I want and you fucking know it. " Gabe snapped, " I'm not like that I'm not I'm not...." Gabe trailed off. He was extremely possessive but he wouldn't admit that even to himself so there was no chance he'd say it out loud.

"Goodbye? What do you mean goodbye ?" Gabe asked infuriated. They were in the middle of a conversation here, if you could call being snarky and cruel to each other a conversation, and William was just going to leave?

"You're done with me? As in you're breaking up with me?" Gabe began to feel the fear disappearing, it was being replaced with something else. A negative emotion that he couldn't quite figure out. He couldn't properly process what was going on right now, it all felt like some sort of bad dream. Oh how he wished that were true.

"What the fuck?" Gabe wondered at William's reasonings. "Yeah there's been times I fucked up but you've fucked up a load of times too, it takes two to tango after all. " Gabe was ready to pull his own hair out as William continued on, not paying any heed to Gabriel.

It wasn't that Gabe didn't trust William, it was more that Gabe thought William was naive and innocent when it came to relationships and that some people would take advantage of that. But he didn't see the use in explaining that to the boy now, and besides William was already making way to leave.

And that was that, Gabriel was left alone in the courtyard after getting his heart stomped on by William Beckett. He wanted to scream, but he wouldn't give up his last shred of dignity. "Well fuck you too . He mumbled out loud, though there was no one close enough to hear him.