Ooooooh SHIT.

Luna looked into Nix's eyes. Or at least, she tried to, with what little vision she had. The tears were swelling so much into her eyes she could barely see. It certainly didn't help that she had been previously mentally screaming at Solaris. She lifted a hand to one of them and held it there, silently hoping at least that eye would dry up. She could feel her mouth twist into a smile one second, but then a frown in the next. Her mind was...Conflicted? Scared? Happy? Sad? Unbelieving? She didn't know whether to let herself believe in what Nix said. She hadn't...Well, she hadn't been loved like that in a long time. She had almost forgotten...The last person who loved her was her adopted mother. Who was...who perished. In the fight against Ahri. And it was her fault.

"Y-you...w-why? Why d-do you love...m-me...I'm not..."

She kept blinking to get rid of the tears in her eyes, so she could see Nix's face, but they were only replenished as she did so. Luna couldn't see him. All she could see was his frozen form on the floor.
Suddenly, she collapsed. Her legs couldn't keep her up anymore. Luna hoped to whatever god existed in this universe that nobody would pass by Nix's door. But really, did she even care at that point?

Why would he even give a shit anyway? I thought he would just be a friend to hang out with not...Not someone that actually cared that much...

Well?

I don't want to talk to you Solaris...

Well. I'm asking you. Well, do you love him too?

Of course I do, you know-

Then say it. For fuck's sake, say it. The fact that you're keeping it in is giving me a splitting headache.

How could Luna even say it though. She could barely speak coherently anymore and the sobs had taken control of her already.





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"Why not?"

Why...not..?

Huh, didn't expect that response.

"Why...not? What..." Why did she feel a giggle flaring up in her chest? "Heh...heheh..."

What-
Why are you-

"Hahah...why not. Heh..." Somehow, she was shocked by this response, and it had somehow stopped her sobbing. Luna expected the classical 'oh I love you because this or that' but with the usual Nix flare. Pun intended. But this? This just surprised her into laughter. VERY confusing.

"S-somehow that's very...I don't know? That's...funny I guess. It's not easy to give a negative comeback to that is it..? Heh..."

Luna's eyes were starting to clear up thankfully. She wiped away the residual tears that hadn't fallen and gave Nix a slight confused smile. She could see he was conflicted. Shocked at his own words perhaps? That expression was hard to read. Well, of course it would be, her mind is all jumbled by now. How could she have read much?

"...Why not," Luna said, looking back down at the floor. What she just said felt like it had more meanings than one. Why not try and believe in this? Why not try and be positive for once?





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Luna's eyes darted right on back to Nix's, surprised yet again at his response. She let out one more small bit of a giggle before going silent, eyes widening a little. He was...still going with his answer?

...I think you should answer him now.

Answer what?

You know. He said he loved you right? Give your response.

Why are you even giving me advice anyway?

Because this is giving me a genuine headache from the cringe that this is.

Luna sighed and looked down into her lap. She did kind of have to, didn't she? She always felt that saying something like this would make shit go downhill, no matter how good the situation might've been. And she also didn't want to make things more awkward than they already were.
She realized her hands were hurting then, so she opened them. She hadn't been fully clenching them, but she might as well have been because of how cramped they felt. Luna flexed them slowly to allow some feeling to return to them.

Without looking up, Luna said, "I don't know how to believe that I have even any likable qualities but...I can't help but believe in you. You're really the only person I know that I can truly trust. 'Whats not to like' you say, and yet, I can't bring myself to come back with something negative. How does one do so anyway?"

Finally, she looked back up at him. "Hah, I'm sorry...Rambling and whatnot...Thank you. For bringing me out of that mess. Who knew a simple 'why not' would get me out? I must be more than a little crazy." She smiled nervously, knowing what she was about to say next.

"Nix..." Luna breathed in deeply to prepare herself, trying to say it with absolute finality... "...I...love you too."






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Hearing those words from his mouth made Luna feel the most intense sense of relief she's ever felt. A huge weight seemed to lift off her shoulders. What seemed like a mountain was gone in an instant. She was happy. Glad that Nix was there for her so much. She felt really bad for going to him so often but maybe, as she hoped before, this would help her lose some of that hatred towards herself. The fear of the past included. Already, the happiness she felt because of such simple words Nix spoke made Luna feel like she was safe from herself. She felt silly realizing this, as they were both giving each other nervous glances, but she was still glad for it. She was glad she didn't stutter when she said her response to him. Her mind was so preoccupied anyway. Now though, it might come out to be hard to understand.

Well...

Well indeed.

Nix did seem nervous right then, and so was Luna. She had a feeling she wouldn't be able to say those special words again without sounding like an absolute idiot. So instead, she smiled. No tears, nothing intense. Luna hoped it was the kind of smile that would help both of them calm down.

"I'm...glad. I'm so glad, that's...heh. Actually, who am I kidding. I'm relieved to no end and excited, not just happy. I'm sorry for uh...going a bit nuts there...Thank you for cheering me up too. I'm surprised as all hell with you though, not sure when that feeling is going to go away but still," she laughed.

I wonder if he's the type to-

Don't even. I swear to God. I know what you're going to say, and I'm not happy about it. Don't ruin this moment pleeeeease, thanks.




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Luna breathed in and out several times to try and clear her head. It was still all sorts of jumbled. She found herself holding onto the back of her neck out of nervousness so she stopped.

"Well, what was your first idea for this date- uh," she caught Nix staring at her. He had quickly glanced back and forth between her eyes and her lips just once, but it was enough to make her burst into laughter. Damn he was obvious as all hell. He was even blushing on top of it.

"PFF, Nix you're already- hhhhahahaha."

Her laughter continued for a good while before she calmed down. Hopefully it wasn't too loud. Speaking from experience, she knows that walls can certainly be thin. Bother Nix's neighbors? No thanks.

Ha. Ha. Wow. He is such a-

Naaaaaah, you can shut up. And she smiled.




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