For a moment he stared off into space before snapping out of it."Ah... glad it reached you and to be honest i had been gone so long i didn't think you'd go to find me over some silly words on a paper, i think ill always send you a mother's day card but... the help part i don't know who to turn to and you've always been so wise and helpful, straight forward too i figured maybe i should try" his whole act dropped and he started pacing back and forth nervously collecting him self before he poured his heart out.
"I'm not happy. I want to be happy so badly and its my own stupid fault! Ever since i got in trouble i wore the band and i guess that was fine, b-but i locked my self away i was scared i didn't want to see people i didn't want to be judged, but i was so god damn lonely, i was under so much fucking stress" he said speaking fast as if he was an old man rambling about something. "Burning things helps but thats hard to do when you can't burn anything! I get cravings and i just need to remember that its all going to be PEACHY if i just wait it out. But its not, its not fine i finally got this thing off and i'm afraid. I don't seem to be good at anything, i have dreams i constantly shoot down and and... i want to set fire to things i get antsy and i have to stop my self. I have to hold my emotions in and just act like every things is fine, i can't do that anymore. I want to burn things i want to set my emotions free let things out but i don't want to hurt anyone, i don't want to be a monster. I want to be healthy, i want to grow up and get married, i want a family" he fell to his knees with his head down punching the ground. "But i'm still afraid, afraid if i were to tell anyone they'd think i was crazy, i needed a power band again maybe even throw me in the joint" a few tears fell from his eyes."I feel... so alone, i feel cheated.. on top of everything the two fucking people who raised me just walked on out like i was a joke... something fun for a few seconds but then forgotten. I just want to be loved... and i keep messing things up for my self... i have no guidance. I just need to know what do to Mom. I need a controlled environment where i can go wild, you don't know how painful it is keeping all this... fire built up inside me". He wiped his face and sat down all quiet now.
@Lich King
"I'm not happy. I want to be happy so badly and its my own stupid fault! Ever since i got in trouble i wore the band and i guess that was fine, b-but i locked my self away i was scared i didn't want to see people i didn't want to be judged, but i was so god damn lonely, i was under so much fucking stress" he said speaking fast as if he was an old man rambling about something. "Burning things helps but thats hard to do when you can't burn anything! I get cravings and i just need to remember that its all going to be PEACHY if i just wait it out. But its not, its not fine i finally got this thing off and i'm afraid. I don't seem to be good at anything, i have dreams i constantly shoot down and and... i want to set fire to things i get antsy and i have to stop my self. I have to hold my emotions in and just act like every things is fine, i can't do that anymore. I want to burn things i want to set my emotions free let things out but i don't want to hurt anyone, i don't want to be a monster. I want to be healthy, i want to grow up and get married, i want a family" he fell to his knees with his head down punching the ground. "But i'm still afraid, afraid if i were to tell anyone they'd think i was crazy, i needed a power band again maybe even throw me in the joint" a few tears fell from his eyes."I feel... so alone, i feel cheated.. on top of everything the two fucking people who raised me just walked on out like i was a joke... something fun for a few seconds but then forgotten. I just want to be loved... and i keep messing things up for my self... i have no guidance. I just need to know what do to Mom. I need a controlled environment where i can go wild, you don't know how painful it is keeping all this... fire built up inside me". He wiped his face and sat down all quiet now.
@Lich King