Private Finished It's Thyme We Were Fronds

Carmin's eyes widened a bit, admittedly surprised by that. Was Fe joking or serious? There was still a strong piece in him that failed to believe her. Telling him that this was all a drawn out and horrible prank. She'd been awfully convincing last time though, and she'd even given him a hundred dollars.

"Fe... Are you actually serious?" The honest truth was that he wanted to take her offer. He just couldn't believe that she was being honest. She hadn't really given him any reason to think otherwise, but he still couldn't help but approach something like this cautiously.

" It was one thing to purchase one of the poems but to hire me?"

It sounded like she was telling the truth. In fact, she had always sounded like that. He had no reason at all to doubt her, never really did. So then why, even now, was he feeling so reluctant?

It was cowardice in the end, he already knew the answer. Even if he told himself that the poems were garbage, he still didn't want to hear it from other people. He didn't want people to make fun of him for it. The poems were personal, they were his feelings, and sharing those was, well, terrifying.

Fe, on the other hand, didn't make sense to him. She seemed so willing to share her passion and never seemed frightened about it at all. Back when she bought his other poem, she was so upfront about it, and even now it was the same. Just the fact that she was a singer, how did anyone do that? How did they learn to sing without feeling embarrassed? What exactly was the secret?

"Another question... Sorry. I need to know. How are you able to share your passion without feeling fear?"

Ever since his arrival on the island back in the summer, Carmin hadn’t really ever allowed himself to go outside his comfort zone. Sure, he’d been forced out of it, by others, but it never was a choice. Now it was.

He felt inclined to turn her down and continue living the way he had, but at the same time that wasn’t really what he wanted. He wanted to change, and this was a great opportunity, even if it was a frightening one.

“I’ll do it...” He responded suddenly, but quietly. He wasn’t sure if it would pay off or he’d regret it, but he knew for certain that if he passed up the offer, he’d regret that decision in the future.

Carmin nodded hesitantly when she thanked him, already starting to wonder what he’d gotten himself into. It was scary but also kind of exciting, he wasn’t used to the kind of feelings he had about all of this.

As for if he could read music or not. “No, I can’t, although...” For a while now he’d wanted to purchase an instrument, something to practice and learn to pass some of the excess of free time that he had. “I’m willing to learn I guess. How to read music I mean. I have a lot of free time and I don’t really sleep at night so I could probably learn quickly.”

Fe’s offer was actually a pretty good one, in fact, he was thinking about actually taking it. Usually he didn’t take handouts, but he assured himself that this was different.

“Hmm... A book might actually help, I’m good to read... And as for an instrument...” That part was tricky, he wasn’t even sure what he wanted to play, or what he even could. “Is there anything you recommend for a beginner? Aside from the stuff where you have to blow, I don’t really uh, have lungs.”