She actually had no idea how long she had stayed in the forest. Or how long she had screamed at Tomas's shade, or even how long she had cried afterwards. In fact, Zora had absolutely no idea how she ended up here at all. No memory of whether she had walked here or driven.
She knew that logically she must have walked out of the forest at some point and gone down to the beach, and climbed up onto the rocks that looked and jutted almost directly out over the ocean. She knew that to get to this secluded place that she often came to to think, she'd have had to cross town somehow. But how she had done that this morning, that was still a mystery to her.
Watching the sun rise out of the ocean, seeing the first rays reflecting and glinting like diamonds off the water, Zora felt tears starting to flow again. Anguish, and guilt and self-loathing threatened to surface and choke the very air from her as she thought about all the pain she had caused, and how maybe, just maybe, life would have been better for everyone if she actually never been born. Her very existence she reasoned, using the twisted logic of someone sleep deprived, exhausted and guilt-ridden, had caused her brother to be the monster he was and maybe, if she had never been born, he would have never hurt people, or turned into the awful monster that he had eventually become.
And while Zora thought about this, she walked to the edge and just stared down into the dark water below, watching as the waves crashed against the side of the rocks, the water breaking as it hit, spraying water upwards, feeling mesmerized.
She also wondered how much it would hurt if she actually jumped, and how long it would take to lose consciousness in the cold waters below. Would dying hurt? she wondered. And then, would she even be able to die? Would being immortal keep her from such an endeavor even if she attempted it?
Staring then at the water beyond, Zora finally sat down and brought her knees up to her chest, wrapping her arms tightly around her legs. Then she rested her head on her knees and closed her eyes, listening to the ocean below and the wind around her...finally trying to desperately push away the dark thoughts that had been plaguing her and just wanting to somehow feel normal again.
@Kada
She knew that logically she must have walked out of the forest at some point and gone down to the beach, and climbed up onto the rocks that looked and jutted almost directly out over the ocean. She knew that to get to this secluded place that she often came to to think, she'd have had to cross town somehow. But how she had done that this morning, that was still a mystery to her.
Watching the sun rise out of the ocean, seeing the first rays reflecting and glinting like diamonds off the water, Zora felt tears starting to flow again. Anguish, and guilt and self-loathing threatened to surface and choke the very air from her as she thought about all the pain she had caused, and how maybe, just maybe, life would have been better for everyone if she actually never been born. Her very existence she reasoned, using the twisted logic of someone sleep deprived, exhausted and guilt-ridden, had caused her brother to be the monster he was and maybe, if she had never been born, he would have never hurt people, or turned into the awful monster that he had eventually become.
And while Zora thought about this, she walked to the edge and just stared down into the dark water below, watching as the waves crashed against the side of the rocks, the water breaking as it hit, spraying water upwards, feeling mesmerized.
She also wondered how much it would hurt if she actually jumped, and how long it would take to lose consciousness in the cold waters below. Would dying hurt? she wondered. And then, would she even be able to die? Would being immortal keep her from such an endeavor even if she attempted it?
Staring then at the water beyond, Zora finally sat down and brought her knees up to her chest, wrapping her arms tightly around her legs. Then she rested her head on her knees and closed her eyes, listening to the ocean below and the wind around her...finally trying to desperately push away the dark thoughts that had been plaguing her and just wanting to somehow feel normal again.
@Kada
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