
"It's not about that! It's just..."
Thabisa said, maybe bit too angrily, as Valli started to explain about mental healthcare or whatever. She let out a frustrated grunt and tried to find the words, she was still hesitant about pouring her heart out at this guy. It was easy to tell the story that Thabisa had told many times before, but to actually talk about feelings and such? Thabisa was very hesitant.
"Look, there's some important people that had to go through hell because I'm like this. They are going through it right now, across the ocean. So it's not fair if I just...get healed like that. I'm a selfish asshole, but those people are...they mean a lot to me. And yeah, I know it doesn't make sense, they wouldn't want me to suffer, blah blah blah, but goddamnit, not like I can reshape my brain just like that!"
Thabisa hit a couch pillow, and of course nothing happened, Thabisa wasn't super strong or anything. She did a lot of self-reflection, knew her own mind inside and out, but even if she did that didn't mean Thabisa could change how she had trained herself to think.