Don't Look Back in Anger

Gabe slipped into his dorm, he knew that Bill would be there as they had been texting earlier. He tried to smile when he entered the room, he didn't like it when his moods brought William down as he knows that the boy feels everything he feels. However he knew that it was a wasted attempt as the smile might have fooled most people, but it wouldn't fool Bill.

"Hey there Bilvy," Gabe let out a little breath, coming to sit down beside the boy. "That didn't...that didn't go so well." He frowned, "I wish that fucking boy had never started bothering us again." He scowled, "I hate him so much, I really do."

"Okay well I'll try to summarise it as much as I can," Gabe shook his head, he felt dizzy and everything was tiring him. "So you see on my way out of class I wasn't paying attention to where I was going, I was actually texting you babe, and then smack! I banged into Michael." He sighed, "if only I had looked where I was going I could have avoided all this crap."

"So I tried to sidestep him, y'know I didn't have any desire to talk to him. But that didn't really work," Gabe frowned, "he started yapping away, about how sorry he was or whatever." Gabe rolled his eyes, "all I could hear was excuses excuses and guess what, yeah you got it more excuses!"

Gabe sighed, "so anyways I was ready to walk away at this point, I had kept my cool until he started saying how much I hurt you and how he wanted to drop me off a cliff." Gabe narrowed his eyes, "I think that man is messed up like wow seriously. Anyways I lost it then...and I yelled at him a lot because he endangered your life by taking you flying and yet he had the nerve to want to kill me for hurting you." Gabe frowned, Which by the way I still feel guilty for but that's beside the point."

"And he barely even responded to that y'know? He was just all casual about it! And then he begged me for forgiveness and I said no and to stay the hell away from us or I will kill him." He frowned, "I don't think I could actually murder a person though. But I still hate him so much..."

It probably hadn't been the wisest thing to leave Gabe and Michael alone together, but at the same time the situation probably could have gotten far worse if Bill had been there too. Not because the boy would have done anything necessarily to make it worse but Gabe would have had a harder time controlling himself if he saw Michael close to his boyfriend. Gabe was worried that Michael might try and get revenge on him by hurting Bill, but that was the substance of his nightmares rather than something that was likely to happen.

"Don't blame yourself," Gabe suddenly said in a strong tone, "none of this was your fault, okay? Don't you dare feel guilty for any of this, if anything it was my fault for losing control or Michael's for not letting me go when I wanted to. But," Gabe weighted each word heavily, "it was not your's Bill, not at all." He hated to see the boy guilty, when it really wasn't his fault at all.

Unaware of what Bill was thinking, Gabe put his own hand on top of William's, trying to comfort him. He noticed the fresh scab on Bill's wrist when he did so, and he met the boy's eyes with a sad smile.

There was a horrible feeling in the pit of his stomach and he thought he could taste the guilt, I should have been able to stop him, I shouldn't have let him get so upset that he went this far. Of course Gabe had seen the scars before, but seeing fresh ones was a different matter. "I'm sorry I've gone and made everything worse." Gabe frowned, he could only see the whole matter as being his fault, regardless of what anyone else would tell him.

Gabe let the boy cry, but pulled him in as close as possible. He rubbed circles on the boy's back to try and reassure him, he was worried about the boy but he didn't want to interrupt and thoughts that were flowing through his head. Let him rant, thought Gabe. When he's got it all out you can reply.

Regardless about not interrupting the boy while he was talking Gabe still pressed some kisses to the boy's forehead and gently wiped away his stream of tears. When poor Bill had finished speaking Gabe began. "I know, sweetie I know." No one wants to be lonely, sure everyone needs time to themselves but they also need company.

"You have me," Gabe bit his lip, "always. But I can understand how you need other people too...and that's why it's so awful that the whole friendship with Michael didn't work out." Gabe felt like that was his fault really, perhaps if he had never acted so nasty to Michael at the beginning of things the man would never have built up the hatred towards him that caused the whole fight.

Gabe didn't want Bill to leave Starlight Academy, he'd miss him terribly. But he knew that was a selfish way to be thinking at the same time. He didn't know much about Bill's family though, the boy didn't like to talk about them so Gabe had the feeling they didn't treat him well. "Are you sure that'd be the best idea sweetie?" Gabe bit his lip, "maybe you could ring them or something and see if they could come out here for a few days?"

It was obvious poor Bill missed his mother terribly from what he was saying, but maybe if she even came to visit it might help him a little.

"I wish I knew how to help," Gabe said sadly, he wasn't very good at helping even though he had all the best intentions. "I love you a lot and I'm very sorry you're sad."

Gabe let the boy get up, not wanting to suffocate him. He felt awful not knowing how to help the boy calm down, maybe I'm just not the person he needs to help...but who can help him? Gabe would have to look into finding something to help the boy, it wasn't fair to let him carry on like this.

When Bill took out the little bottle Gabe watched him curiously. "What's that?" He asked with a tilt of his head. Hopefully it would help whatever it was. "Hmm...I'm sure she would want to see you." Gabe frowned, "she must miss you, even if... you guys argued or something?"

"If you're too scared to call her I could do it for you?" Gabe offered, wrapping an arm around the boy. "Only if you wanted me to of course." He didn't know if he should say any more regarding Bill's family as talking about them only seemed to make the poor boy more upset. He'd wait for Bill to bring them up again if his boyfriend felt like it.

"Do you think it's gotten worse since you came here? Gabe asked quietly. Maybe things had been better for Bill before Starlight Academy, he didn't know much about Bill's past before he had come here. "Maybe there's someone around who has powers which could help," he bit his lip, "I'm not sure who but there must be."