Do You Want Me As Much As Them?

Claire

Claire

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Jeong felt isolated. For the past few weeks he felt like he could do nothing wrong. His honeymoon had been a paradise that he never wanted to leave. If he would have been honest, staying there wouldn't have been that bad. He was okay with being with Jett, he always had been. Every day for the past five years he had so many emotions that had spiralled through his head.

Love, jealousy, happiness, anger and sadness. For the first time in his life he dreaded going back to the island; he didn't want to face reality again. He was there though, waiting for Felix outside of Toby's shop. He didn't want to see Toby, so he had asked Felix to meet him outside. As of now, he needed to get a few things off of his chest. He shivered a bit, rubbing his arms with his gloved hands. Jeong felt unwanted. The tiger felt insignificant to Felix, the new factor into this three way relationship. For Jeong, that needed to be fixed.
 
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On the surface level with the four of them, it might look like Jeong and Felix got along better and had more in common with each other. But Jeong was an enigma to Felix. Truth be told, past the initial niceness, Jeong and Felix had nothing in common. Felix felt more kinship to Toby and Jett. Jett, he'd been butting heads with since College, both competitive and passionate about the arts. Toby, the isolation, the trauma, the humor and romance, with an intrinsic familiarity that marked them as creatures of the same kind.

Felix had been wrapping his head around the concept of Jeong for a while now. He'd played with him a little to get a better idea of his appeal, perhaps expose a hidden darker side, but Jeong was simply nice. And gullible. And impressionable. Felix understood why Jett liked him: Jett liked good people, loathe as he was to admit it, and he found that in Jeong and on Felix's surface. Felix understood why Toby liked him: safety and familiarity. Jeong was a good person smitten with bad people. Felix... wasn't different from Toby or Jett at all.

If Jeong felt insignificant, Felix did more so. The only person Felix really knew for long was Jett, and prior to them dating, Felix's exposure to him was restricted in the classroom and the courthouse. The three of them were impenetrable. If there was ever anyone that could be driven out here, it was Felix, because he was new, because they've been together this long without him and they could go even longer.

They were supposed to meet. Felix felt no apprehension. Whatever was going to happen here, it was going to happen, and he'd rather it be done. He put on his coat and went downstairs where he saw Jeong out in the snow. He smiled at him with a fake smile trained so well nobody could tell it wasn't genuine. "Hello, Jeong. Would you like to go upstairs? It's freezing out here."
 
Claire

Claire

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Was it bad that Jeong was getting a bit antsy? He knew that he'd be alone with Felix; no Toby or Jett to back him up on his feelings or sayings. In other words, he needed to tread lightly if he wanted to remain on good terms with everyone. He didn't hate Felix by any means; he just hated what he had done. Without further explanation, it was clear that he had worked his way into a place that hadn't been designed for him. He didn't want to be a jealous person. He didn't want to constantly think that Toby or Jett would leave him with a swift movement.

This though, this was something he couldn't just ignore. Felix and Toby were married, which was further than either Jett or him had gotten. In Jeong's eyes, Felix was closer to someone he had known for so much longer. Why? He didn't know the answer, but maybe it was because Felix was nice, powerful and good looking. When his eyes fixated on him finally, he huffed out a breath. "Yeah." Being welcomed in felt a lot better than to just barge into where both of them lived now. "I'd like that, as I suppose you don't want to talk in the cold." It seemed that Jeong got extra sniffly this time of year. Once Felix moved again, Jeong would casually follow him, keeping his eyes fixated on his face when he could. "Thanks for doing this." If he was honest, Jeong wasn't exactly sure if there was a singular purpose to this visit.
 
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Felix didn't feel antsy about this. Felix rarely felt fear, and this was one of those situations that made him more focused and certain than anything. Whatever happens, happens; what comes around, goes right back. Felix wasn't optimistic about the situation. He was anticipating the worse, but now that he was here, it was easier to accept — like that final plunge into the cold, watery depths.

Felix didn't keep people, and even married as he was, that was still something he considered fact. He liked to pretend it was all self-imposed, but in truth, he was cursed, unwanted, unlovable. The marriage was a fluke. A hasty decision made in the spur of the moment. There was a part of Felix that hoped dearly that Jeong would be the one to destroy it, because no matter how much Felix struggled against it, Toby followed him around like a lost puppy. How long ago had he known him? It was the summer of 2016, there was a severed hand, and Felix fell in love in a dark parking lot. He was never going to forget him, never, never.

As they stepped inside, Felix traded his coat for his starry sari, gestured for Jeong to sit, and brought a tray at the table. Felix stared at the