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Hope the Bard · Sep 18, 2020

[On ConfessionBox.com - a fictional site Hope came up with right now where internet users can vent about their frustration without fear of being exposed in real life.]

Hey guys, I found out about this place today and decided to finally get everything out. I'm a YouTuber who makes videos of me singing and acting online, but ever since I joined a drama club at my local school I feel like I'm no one special anymore. And I get it. I'm not always going to be the best. But performing seems so effortless for these talented kids. It's like they've never had to work for their skills and that they breathe performing arts, and they outshine me by miles. It's really demoralising, and I feel sometimes like I wanna just give up on my career. I mean, even if I move back to my hometown I don't think any of the agencies would still be interested in me since after I moved I lost all my traction and my name disappeared from the screen.

Oh, and the other day I found out the identity of someone who attacked and blackmailed me. I could've died - he could've easily killed me, but when I told him how betrayed and hurt and angry I felt he just... Cried. I couldn't hate him. He looked so pathetic. I wanted to give him a hug and that's what I hate. I can't even bring myself to hold him to these dark and swirling feelings inside me. I probably sound like an extra from some cheesy teen drama like 13 reasons why. But I just... I can't hate him, and that makes me hate him more. I don't want to forgive him, but I don't want to blame him either.

And that makes me hate myself.

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Kada · Sep 28, 2020

I went through a break up not too long ago and I've been taking time to take care of myself. It's been going great, honestly. I feel incredible in comparison to even just a few months ago. But I think I'm in love and I don't know what to do about it. I know they like me back and I want to ask them out. But I don't know what an appropriate amount of time is to wait, to know that I'm actually doing better and that I'm not going to just spiral back down. I can't do that to her again.

- Earth^3 Angel

Keen · Oct 1, 2020

sometimes i don't get this island. it preaches acceptance of all supernatural species. it advertises itself as extremely accommodating. sure, there's some rules. don't murder at random. don't be an asshole. and yeah, the majority of the people here are human. humans are the basis for it

but it fucking. pisses me off. to see so many people be hypocrites and have haughty "i'm better than you" opinions.

most people accept that succubi/incubi need sex. if not physically, then psychologically. if not that, well, they just enjoy it! and most people agree that's fine. it's an important part of them to like sexual activity or physical affection or to be social

so why is it when someone's ingrained to enjoy being commanded, it's bad? it's not non-consensual if they want it. it's an intrinsic part of them and should be accepted instead of treated as something awful. and isn't it fucked up to make them go to therapy for it where that can be used against them? or to tell them they should be unhappy with that part of themself or is it fine because it's for "the greater good" and its to "adjust" them to society or whatever

you can say that wanting to be commanded is wrong. there's too much possibility for abuse. then what about succubi/incubi? there's a lot of possibility for abuse there if they need sex. but to them, humans might be the "weird" ones for having a low libido

i'm just saying, people should reflect on their double standards here more. i'm getting tired of this island's bullshit way of thinking. it's messed up how far up it goes

- Unravel

Kathinja · Oct 2, 2020

After my father stabbed me to death, I wish I had stayed dead.

-anonymous123

Saber · Oct 2, 2020

My mom used to torture me, and then heal the injuries with magic, make the scars fade away. I wish I had the scars, not having them makes me feel artificial, makes me feel fake.

-Goshikku

Hope the Bard · Nov 11, 2020

I wonder if this is the kind of thing I can put on a site like this. I was just wondering... is it okay for me to dress up as a catboy on Halloween? Would NEK0 people find it offensive? It's not my intention to tease at all, but I just thought that catboys were really cool and I wanted to kind of dress up like one. But I get it if it's offensive. After all, being a NEK0 isn't a fashion statement. It's a lifestyle.

But I don't know. If people say it's okay, I'd love to do it! I used to be friends with a NEK0 but we don't talk much anymore. If we did, I'd ask him. I kind of miss him, actually. I wish we were still friends, but after what happened a few months back...

Oh! I'm oversharing! Sorry. But then again, I suppose that might be what this site is for anyway...

- Midwinter Sugar

Keen · Nov 11, 2020

to midwinter sugar,

1. dude, theres other cat peoplethan nek0s. unless you mean nekos/catpeople in general. im assuming you dont. pretty sure people arent gonna ping you as a dressing up as a nek0 unless your wearing a slave collar and being fetishy lol. in which case: fuck off

2. halloweens not that big of a thing because of the whole "dresssing up as other species" shit

3. if you gotta fuckin ask if your potentially being offensive to a friend your not on good terms with anymore, then??? maybe youre being fucking offensive?? or talk to him or nekos instead of asking strnagers on the internet lmao

- Yikestm

Hope the Bard · Nov 11, 2020

To Yikestm,

Thanks so much for the reply! I wasn't really planning on going out anyway, but I still felt weird about it. I feel better having read this.

- Midwinter Sugar

Kada · Nov 11, 2020

I am the legal guardian and caretaker of my younger siblings. I know that that's not a terribly unique thing around here. But I feel... trapped. They can't take care of themselves and it's my fault that we're in this situation in the first place. I am responsible for every bad thing that has happened to our family. So I have to be responsible for fixing it.

But I've been feeling resentment building up for some time. Resentment towards my father for not being able to protect them. Resentment towards myself for getting us in trouble in the first place. Resentment towards my siblings for being so, so weak.

It feels like poison in a wound and it festers every time I look at them. I don't want to feel this way. But is it so selfish to want to live for myself and be happy rather than miserably toil at a task that I am not suited for.

Motherhood does not become me.

- Queene, Reluctant

Saber · Nov 11, 2020

Both sides of my family think I'm an abomination because of the type of hybrid I am. Got a scar from when one of my cousins decided they wanted to hurt me over it.

I know it isn't true, that there's nothing wrong with me, with my parents having me. But there's always those moments where I wonder if maybe they're right, a part of me wants to hurt myself in those moments, but I never seem to really want to hurt them, not really.

- Horns 'N Rings

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