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"Exactly." Live said continuing her squiggles, "The fish would be miserable in the tree. It would literally die up there but the squirrels don't care. They just think that their way of life is perfect and that the fish should just learn to live like them."
 

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Okay this was getting weirder and weirder and just like...why. Just why is this conversation even a thing?! Desmond shook his head and resumed relaxing in his seat. "Okay so tell me what this is really about Live hmm?" He wasn't looking at her as he said this. In fact he had opened the mirror to examine his face. "You brought this story of the fish and squirrels for a reason so what is it?" he plucked at one of his beard hairs then closed the mirror.

He reached for the box of crackers and grabbed a handful of those and shoved them all in his mouth loudly munching on to them.
 

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She glanced over at him, "You asked about my happiness. I'm trying to explain it to you."

This really wasn't making any sense. Live decided a change in music was in order. She grabbed her phone and started scrolling thru her songs, "So...what is it that you usually listen to?"
 

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Then everything slowly came into place for him. He began making the little connections in his mind and slightly smiled. "So you are the fish then? And the squirrels are....your family? Or just general population?" he leaned over closer to Live and stared. "So you aren't happy I got that. The why? I'm not one hundred percent sure. So let me ask you do you want to be happy?" Simple question with a simple yes or no, no way she would try to give a long answer for this right? He would hope not...people tend to do that....A LOT.

"Listen Live, Be happy if you want to be." and with that he would lead into the song he would like to listen too "and so, my song choice iiiissss" wait for it. Waaaaait for it. "HAKUNA MATATA!"
 

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Live nodded, "Yeah I'm the fish. The squirrels are...well, you're one of the squirrels."

"I'm not happy because I'm stuck in a fucking fish bowl... This fucking planet. This god damn dimension, realm, whatever terminology you want to use for it. I just want to go to a different existence but I can't...I can't leave this fucking body and this body can't leave this fucking planet...I'm the most grounded person in the world and it's killing me."

Well..that all came out in a rush. Live found that her drawing had picked up and the squiggles started to look like a pattern. Some would probably call it tribal, which guess it kind of was. It looked a lot like the stuff she had on her backpack which looked handmade. It was deep blue with black and white tribal designs. She had gotten it from her grandmother.

As the new song came on she sighed...whatever. She didn't really care what they listened to at this point she just..she just didn't want to have to go outside or go home. She still had a few hours until sleep felt possible.
 

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Well shit got deep real quick for him. Desmond sighed and just wasn't fully understanding this, he was trying but it was all just ugh to him at the moment. He can blame the weed for this. "I'm a squirrel huh? Well then how about I just be a fish with you? Eh?" he chuckled and resumed to relaxing in his seat and closing his eyes. "Sounds like a lot of things going on for you then.....hey what can I do to make you like this place at least...or well me?" Also he knew it wasn't going to be a simple yes or no answer!

He shifted in his seat a little as he listened to such a glorious song."Don't leave your bod....It's not super model hot or anything but..." He quickly eyed Live's body and shrugged "It's okay? Eeeh....I would tap." Desmond tilted his head a bit to the left and squinted at Live. "But you wanting to leave your bod so you can leave this place to go to some other place. Why is that? You would feel at peace there? Happy? You think that if you was able to go there you would be happy and all smiles?" Desmond would wait for a response before continuing. "What if you do get there and realize it's just as bad? Maybe worse? Then what are you going to do?"

Desmond would watch her draw those tribal patterns as he waited for response to that question which caused him to prompt up one more question. "Why tribal? Are you like...native or something?"
 

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She paused thinking for a moment, "I like this island. It is the only decent place on this planet because at least here I feel just a tiny bit closer to the place I actually want to be in."

"As far as liking you goes," She said continuing her drawing, "Besides the cheese thing you haven't done anything to make me dislike you. I mean, you're letting me smoke in your van even after I barged in and destroyed your hot box..."

She honestly didn't have any strong negative emotions towards Desmond at this point. She was mostly neutral on him which was good for Live. Her biggest factor in liking people was their usefulness to her. She had a hard time justifying being around someone if they weren't purposefully in her life. But she also had a hard time opening up enough to people to let that happen. So far Kaya was the only one to truly accomplish that.

She eyed him weird for a second, "I don't think you actually want to have sex with me so you don't have to lie. I'm under no delusions about my physical appearance." Live knew that she wasn't unattractive but she also knew she wasn't the most attractive. She was just average. Average plus a bunch of dark makeup and grungy, frumpy clothes.

"No I don't think I would be all happy and smiles. I think I wouldn't have to smile there and could just actually be myself...which...is pretty damn dark. I want to go to the Shadow Realm but like I said, can't get my soul out of my body so that plan is a no go for right. So instead I just have to deal with being stuck in a fish bowl that causes me severe depression."

There she went, saying shit about her depression again. She tried to shrug off the saying like it didn't mean much but the word hung in the air in an uncomfortable manner. She quickly moved on to answer his next question.

She gave a small nod, "Yeah, my dad was mostly Cherokee. I have an affinity for the tribal patterns and native looking designs because of it."
 

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"Yay okay so you like this place because it makes you feel closer to the place you want to be at the most." Yep that seemed to make sense to him. Desmond didn't get the whole not being able to leave body part at all. He can totally think of a few ways she could do that. Like having said soul be removed from her body by a reaper or something. The other way was going to see if dying would let her go there too but he wasn't going to tell her to go and die and see what happens. Not good advice at all. "So the best thing you can do now is find things and maybe even people that allows you to feel even more closer to the place than you are now....um or" He kept thinking on things to say not really sure if she would even take the advice. "Make your own shadow realm. Make it so you can go there whenever you want and allows your physical body to be there without rejection." Did he make sense? He wasn't sure if he did or not but hopefully she kinda understood what he was saying yeah?

Well anyway at least she didn't hate him. Cool. He was completely in the neutral zone whiched he likes being at. Desmond gave Live a quick grin and just shook his head. "I'm telling you I'd fuck, geeeez. Sure fine believe what you want." the grin continued to stay on his face as he was clearly amused by this. "So yourself huh? What's that like? Actually like. More dark and moody like the batman or like crazy stab murder murder? Come on tell me I reaaaaaaaally want to know! Otherwise I wouldn't be able to help you with your depression ya know?" Tribal matters aside. Desmond really wanted to know a lot about Live now. He likes trying to figure people out and putting things together, high or not.

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Live just listened as he listed off things she could do to get to the Shadow Realm or be closer to it. She honestly was pretty close to it, about as close as she could get. Her best friend was the daughter of the guy who currently ruled the Shadow Realm so that was pretty great. She just shrugged, "It is what it is. I don't like it. Don't pretend to but I can't do much about it. I just keep on existing anyway."

"My soul is basically all shadow demon. That's why I'm all dark and moody. It's literally at the core of my being to embody the absence of light. Sometimes I feel like I suck the joy out of everything around me...like I'm some kind of black hole."

She paused to grab a different pen. "I'm just a shitty human being."
 

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He groaned. There are a lot of moody people who always seems to talk about the negatives in their life. Desmond stretched his arms and continued to let Live talk and talk about why she was all dark and moody. "At least you didn't go all Bruce Wayne on me. " he dugged a finger in his ear and twirled it around a bit trying to get any ear wax out of it. Did he look very disinterested? Maybe.

"Okay Live...you sad, hate life and lots of other stuff I get it. You even have good reasons as to why you are so well....shitty." He slowly moved closer to Live and grinned. "Of course you aren't that shitty. If anything you miiiiight be emo. Slightly." He shrugged and tapped his chin a few times."To the sucking joy out part, eeeeh. Moody music yeah but I am three hundred percent enjoying myself."

Desmond nonchalantly pulled at Live's cheeks. "Smile or frown either way you seem alright by me. Now it's getting late and I can either kick you out my van or let you stay for the night. Sleeping with or not. Your choice but uh...back seats can become a bed."

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