Stefan had gone quite a while without sleeping day and a half too be exact, thoughts stuck in his head that drove him mad. He was to much of a coward to talk to anyone else but himself about them, he didn't want to burden anyone. He didn't want to seem weak ironic seeing as everyone knew he was weak even himself, he didn't want to whine about it and yet he had done so in the past. He cared all too much about what people thought of him end it seemed like his self image was going downhill more and more everyday.
Stef bought a bunch of energy drinks and went to one of his favorite thinking spots the night before, a shoreline by the woods where there were usually no people to be found. He sat there looking at the stars all night long thinking, thinking about his life, about his parents, about his future about his feelings, feelings that were fading. Stefan was a joke and normally he would laugh at the though but it was all too true, jokes weren't supposed to have families they were something to mention for a quick chuckle and nothing more and that's how he felt. He tried to fill that gap, he called his friend sister and brother and even mother but on the inside he knew it was all something he used to cope with the realization that he might never really have any family at all one day.
It had been about two hours since the sun had risen, there Stefan layed sleep depraved with cans of energy drink littered all around him. With all those drinks and all that heat poor Stefan started to become diluted. He tossed and turned in the sand speaking to himself like some maniac, he swore he could hear someone speaking to him.
"look at you sitting here doing nothing talking to yourself you're 17 get a grip we should be going out there and jumping off more trees having fun doing stuff that'll take your mind off things until we're one again" he said in a raspy voice flipping to the left side of him."I try and is not good enough i'm too lazy I'm not really good at anything besides video games and what can I do with that.I can't jump off any more trees, the more I try the harder it is to take my mind off things and we can't be one again it's against the law I don't want to hurt any more people" he said flipping back to his right."Don't you wanna have fun, didn't you love the rush? When we ripped those men apart?" He turned to his left."N-no! I never wanted to hurt anyone it was you! It was all fucking you!" he turned back right."But did it because I knew you would enjoy it isn't this what you wanted to help your friends while having a little fun, Stefan don't you see I'm your family I'm your only family we've been together your whole life I've never left you I've always been there". The boy started laughing and hugging him self, he was happy he thought about this Smoke was his family and so you reach for his power bracelet you can't keep family locked away can you.
This is what he wanted someone who was with him all his life and just as he went to reach for his hand he stopped. He was still laughing but he had realized something, something that made him want to die. He was Smoke he remembered it or doing those things it wasn't an outside force it was him. Sure he might've been influenced by the aura, and the pressure, and the adrenaline, but it was still him it was still Stefan enjoying every bit of it. The laughing soon started to fade into crying was in a violet cry but more of a slow weeping. He had realized that his only family was himself Smoke was Stefan and Stefan was Smoke.
He went and laid back in the sand laughing and crying, slowly getting sunburn."You're my real family" he said to himself in the laughing and crying fit. "You'll always be my real family".
Stef bought a bunch of energy drinks and went to one of his favorite thinking spots the night before, a shoreline by the woods where there were usually no people to be found. He sat there looking at the stars all night long thinking, thinking about his life, about his parents, about his future about his feelings, feelings that were fading. Stefan was a joke and normally he would laugh at the though but it was all too true, jokes weren't supposed to have families they were something to mention for a quick chuckle and nothing more and that's how he felt. He tried to fill that gap, he called his friend sister and brother and even mother but on the inside he knew it was all something he used to cope with the realization that he might never really have any family at all one day.
It had been about two hours since the sun had risen, there Stefan layed sleep depraved with cans of energy drink littered all around him. With all those drinks and all that heat poor Stefan started to become diluted. He tossed and turned in the sand speaking to himself like some maniac, he swore he could hear someone speaking to him.
"look at you sitting here doing nothing talking to yourself you're 17 get a grip we should be going out there and jumping off more trees having fun doing stuff that'll take your mind off things until we're one again" he said in a raspy voice flipping to the left side of him."I try and is not good enough i'm too lazy I'm not really good at anything besides video games and what can I do with that.I can't jump off any more trees, the more I try the harder it is to take my mind off things and we can't be one again it's against the law I don't want to hurt any more people" he said flipping back to his right."Don't you wanna have fun, didn't you love the rush? When we ripped those men apart?" He turned to his left."N-no! I never wanted to hurt anyone it was you! It was all fucking you!" he turned back right."But did it because I knew you would enjoy it isn't this what you wanted to help your friends while having a little fun, Stefan don't you see I'm your family I'm your only family we've been together your whole life I've never left you I've always been there". The boy started laughing and hugging him self, he was happy he thought about this Smoke was his family and so you reach for his power bracelet you can't keep family locked away can you.
This is what he wanted someone who was with him all his life and just as he went to reach for his hand he stopped. He was still laughing but he had realized something, something that made him want to die. He was Smoke he remembered it or doing those things it wasn't an outside force it was him. Sure he might've been influenced by the aura, and the pressure, and the adrenaline, but it was still him it was still Stefan enjoying every bit of it. The laughing soon started to fade into crying was in a violet cry but more of a slow weeping. He had realized that his only family was himself Smoke was Stefan and Stefan was Smoke.
He went and laid back in the sand laughing and crying, slowly getting sunburn."You're my real family" he said to himself in the laughing and crying fit. "You'll always be my real family".
