Wyspr #10

Hey, I didn't say I'm a guy. Though I kinda did bust myself, so there go my efforts at hiding it lol

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I'm not really sure if we're supposed to offer advice or anything here, guess that depends on if you want any. But I kinda feel like on some level we're kinda similar. Or then I'm just fooling myself 'cos of this anonymity thing, I dunno

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My second secret is...kinda heavy. My old dimension, it's gone now, and when it was in the middle of disappearing I went to look for my dad. And when I found him he had tried to kill himself. But he was still alive then, breathing at least. But instead of getting him help I just left him and saved myself. Even though he could've been saved too. So guess I kind of indirectly killed him...

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i actually didnt know you were a guy, i was just talking about my stuff

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you cant blame yourself for his death. he tried to kill himself, and if you had tried to save him anyway maybe neither of you would be here.

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im glad you lived at least

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You said "also" so I just assumed, but nevermind, doesn't really matter. The being a guy thing, your stuff matters, obviously

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It's like, in my head I know that he would've probably just died anyway, or killed himself later, but still I can't help but feel that I'm absolute shit if I feel good or happy or anything when I survived and he didn't. So I kinda just...stay by myself

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Thanks for saying that dude, it means a lot, especially since I might just be full of shit for all you know. I'm not though. I hope you're not either

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Look, sorry for suddenly dropping that on you, just felt like I had to get it out. This place is for secrets but not like you came here hear about stuff like this. So you can just leave if this gets too weird for ya

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this thing is supposed to be for getting stuff off your chest, so i guess it makes sense that you would bring up something like that

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i thought my secret about sleeping with guys would be one of the bigger ones here. its weird to me that people dont think that's a big deal on the island.

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i want to keep talking though. i dont get to talk much with other guys who are into guys.

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I know, I'm just super self-conscious. Guess that's one of my secrets too, try to act all confident and funny but really I'm just anxious all the time

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I was pretty freaked out at first too when everyone was so okay about that stuff, since I had spent all my life avoiding it. I still haven't gotten used to it, honestly, I just avoid talking about myself when it comes to it. Has worked thus far

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Sure, that's cool. Same, honestly. Like, I got two close friends(my only friends) who're into guys, but they don't know about me, so I don't talk about it with anyone

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I know, it's weird that a guy with gay friends is in the closet

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my mom found out about what i was doing one time, but she said it was just a phase. i kinda hope shes right so i dont have to deal with it

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even if its ok to fool around with guys here im not planning on staying here. i want to figure out how to be interested in girls before i go back home where being gay could kill me

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no offense

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None taken, I think. I mean, that's understandable, since it's kinda the question of life and death for you

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They say that sexuality's a spectrum and stuff, so good luck dude. It would suck a lot if you died, especially since you got a dimension to go back to, with family and friends and everything

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I probably can't like girls, I've tried dating some and it just kinda felt...wrong, in my heart, you know. But when I was aware of my feelings for guys it felt wrong in my head, it was weird...

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Not trying to get you down or anything though, even if I can't doesn't mean you can't

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I haven't actually tried dating a girl yet, but I want to. So I can live like any other straight guy. I went to homecoming with a girl, but she's like a sister to me and we both feel that way about each other. And I know that one of my other girl friends has a crush on me, I've just never acted on it.

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If I could pick any girl to date it would probably be her. But I'm scared I'll ruin our friendship or hurt her.

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Pretty sure I'd have to give up fooling around with guys too.

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The girls I dated never really ended up being my friends. And even if we were something like friends before we started dating it didn't last afterwards. Though I was a hard guy to befriend in the first place...

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I guess it depends on how close you are as friends. Like, even if it doesn't work out would you be able to stay friends. Since you're right, only dating her to get over liking guys sounds, uh, pretty hurtful. Unless it works and she never finds out

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I'd imagine that if you wanna try and...not be gay then you probably shouldn't fool around with guys. Sounds kinda counter productive, don't ya think?

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