Private Finished What Have We Done?

Valerie was... she was conflicted. Today she woke up cuddling a pillow when she had expected to wake up cuddling Alex. And somehow she felt hurt when that shouldn't have been the case. She didn't know if she was just disappointed on not seeing him right beside her, or she was afraid that she wasn't going to see him again. Even though most of what happened the night before was a blur because of how intoxicated she was, the emotions remained plastered onto her heart.

She sat up on her bed and noticed her clothes on the bed. She was half naked. That night wasn't a dream. Oh no... what if her father knew? What would he have done if he found out they did... that. Quickly, she looked at the clock on her wall. It was a little over half past nine... Her dad would have been at work by now. Good, because she was going to have to change the sheets. She pulled them off of the bed and threw them into a basket, along with some of her dirty clothes. Since she was already half naked, she decided to shower. It helped clear her muddled mind as she washed away the scents lewd scents on her body. As soon as she got dressed, she went down to the laundry room and put everything in. After which she went to the kitchen to grab some food.

This was what she did almost every day, barring the different order of what she did and her waking up early to see her father go to work. But she couldn't focus on a lot of it. Perhaps some TV would help. She turned the TV to some cartoons, but her mind soon drifted to the thought of Alex. What was he doing right now? Did he think she was weird for last night? Maybe she had said something in her sleep... Her mind just jumped from one thing to another, the TV was just white noise to her among the thoughts that seemed random. She was lying on the couch now, looking up at the ceiling, her wing draped over her forehead.

What was she going to say to Alex the next time they saw each other?


@Saber

The hours ticked by and Val was just lost in her own world, every noise outside and inside becoming background radiation in an empty galaxy. Until she heard a knock at the door, which pulled her back to Earth. She barely heard it too. "C-coming!" she called out. Normally she would have bolted towards the door, but... she just wasn't feeling it right now.

She sat up and stood up, then took some time to fix herself up as she was walking to the door. She unlocked it, turned the doorknob and opened it just a crack to see who was outside.

"A-Alex!" she said in surprise. A large blushed invaded her cheeks as she diverted her gaze down. She made three attempts at looking him in the eye before she finally succeeded. She was quiet for a few moments before she opened the door fully. "C-come in."

She stepped back to give Alex all the room he needed to get inside. Valerie didn't know what to say to him. She didn't even know if she was mad at him, or not. Whether she had regretted what she had did or happy that she got to experience something like it. With Alex here, she didn't feel as dirty as she had before.

She didn't resist his hug, and when he apologized, she remained quiet, keeping her arms where they were as she rested her head on his chest. She stayed like this as she struggled to find the words she wanted to say. He couldn't see her face as she was looking down, however, there remained her blush.

"You came back," she said before hesitantly wrapping her arms around him, sobbing a little. "I thought you left me..."

It was reassuring to hear him say those things, that he loved her, that he wouldn't just leave her. That he'll always come back. It made her grip at the back of his shirt. She couldn't say anything. She didn't know how to. Was she okay? She didn't know.

All these feelings, she couldn't really pinpoint, or rather, didn't want to pinpoint. Because she was scared. What did these feelings mean? Was it anything bad? She woke up feeling a little sick, unclean, and not just in the physical sense.

Did she feel betrayed? Possibly, since she felt like that when she woke up to see that Alex was gone. She was afraid that he was gone forever. And what did that make her? She had a moment, a nice one. But waking up without him there made her feel... depressed. Unpleasant thoughts went through her mind. And now that he was here... seeking her out on his own... all those things began to collapse into her.

Was she a bad person for thinking that he would leave her forever? If not, then would the scenarios running through her mind make the cut? How could she think all that bad stuff about him? Why was she worried? She trusted him, didn't she?

If he knew she had doubts... would he leave?

Val hugged him tighter as tears rolled down her cheeks. "I'm sorry..." she muttered quietly, unable to hold back the stirring emotions in her mind, her chest... her heart. "... don't leave me... please..."

She was surprised when he suddenly picked her up, but being carried like that felt nice at least. He sat down and put her on his lap. As he said those things to her, it only stung like knives when it sounded so sincere. He hadn't done anything bad to her, she knew that, and what happened that night was her fault. She did that to herself.

He was so nice to her, and she doubted him. What kind of girlfriend was she? Did he know that was what she was thinking?

As he looked into her eyes, she could feel her guilt crawling all over her. "I'm so... so sorry. For being like this..." Tears streamed down her cheeks as she hugged Alex tightly, sobbing and whining.