He hated this…
He hated this all…
Sabriel had been like this for weeks. Every moment of everyday, he had been sinking deeper and deeper into depression. His mood swings were more drastic and had become more violent as well, taking longer and longer for him to go back to normal. His pills hadn’t been helping, and he had actually overdosed about a week ago, thinking that if he took more than that might make this better. Sabriel didn’t understand what was going on, but every time he tried to smile it hurt him inside and the desire to hurt himself had become stronger and stronger.
That morning, Sabriel had snapped. He had gone absolutely crazy; he had been cutting his arms, he had broken so many things that he didn’t even know what he had done, and he knew he was just a burden. It killed him inside to know that he was a burden on January… that was all he had ever been, really. He was just a crazy, insane kid with voices in his head, hallucinations, and mood swings who needed someone to desperately cling onto. January probably hated him… as much as he loved that man; he kept thinking that it would be better off without him there. Then January would never have to worry about having to take care of him ever again.
He had then run out of the dorm they shared and ran down to the lake. It had gotten to the point where he couldn’t stand it! Sabriel just couldn’t take it at all… everything was becoming a chore. Even breathing had become a nuisance. As Sabriel stood before the lake, he looked at the cuts on his arms that hadn’t yet healed, closing his eyes after a moment and coughing to suppress a sob. He didn’t know how to swim, so this would be good. This would be fine. He would actually get to physically feel the sinking feeling that pulled at his mind with every single passing second.
“It’s okay, Sabe. Just do it,†one of the voices urged. “Just do it. No one will care.â€Â
The others chimed in, and that was the absolute last straw. His golden eyes filled with tears and he let out a single sob before turning to look back at the school, the place that had been his home for the last two years. It was time to move on. Sabriel ran into the water before fully jumping in, immediately being over taken and sucked in.
And, yet, for whatever reason, he was struggling against it. The water burned the open cuts on his arms and filled the water with his blood, not to mention it burned his nose and throat. That was okay, though; it was okay. It would be over soon enough.
He hated this all…
Sabriel had been like this for weeks. Every moment of everyday, he had been sinking deeper and deeper into depression. His mood swings were more drastic and had become more violent as well, taking longer and longer for him to go back to normal. His pills hadn’t been helping, and he had actually overdosed about a week ago, thinking that if he took more than that might make this better. Sabriel didn’t understand what was going on, but every time he tried to smile it hurt him inside and the desire to hurt himself had become stronger and stronger.
That morning, Sabriel had snapped. He had gone absolutely crazy; he had been cutting his arms, he had broken so many things that he didn’t even know what he had done, and he knew he was just a burden. It killed him inside to know that he was a burden on January… that was all he had ever been, really. He was just a crazy, insane kid with voices in his head, hallucinations, and mood swings who needed someone to desperately cling onto. January probably hated him… as much as he loved that man; he kept thinking that it would be better off without him there. Then January would never have to worry about having to take care of him ever again.
He had then run out of the dorm they shared and ran down to the lake. It had gotten to the point where he couldn’t stand it! Sabriel just couldn’t take it at all… everything was becoming a chore. Even breathing had become a nuisance. As Sabriel stood before the lake, he looked at the cuts on his arms that hadn’t yet healed, closing his eyes after a moment and coughing to suppress a sob. He didn’t know how to swim, so this would be good. This would be fine. He would actually get to physically feel the sinking feeling that pulled at his mind with every single passing second.
“It’s okay, Sabe. Just do it,†one of the voices urged. “Just do it. No one will care.â€Â
The others chimed in, and that was the absolute last straw. His golden eyes filled with tears and he let out a single sob before turning to look back at the school, the place that had been his home for the last two years. It was time to move on. Sabriel ran into the water before fully jumping in, immediately being over taken and sucked in.
And, yet, for whatever reason, he was struggling against it. The water burned the open cuts on his arms and filled the water with his blood, not to mention it burned his nose and throat. That was okay, though; it was okay. It would be over soon enough.