Now I can see (where exactly I was wrong)

Clockwise Dream · Apr 26, 2014

Michael immediately shook his head. What was with both Gabriel and William assuming that he was in love in the boy? Alright, so his behaviour might seem like that of a someone who is in unrequited love, but William's friend ship really did mean something else to him. And it all came back to that, didn't it? He wasn't explaining that because he didn't want to irritated Gabriel by making excuses, but... It seemed like he had irritated the man anyway, and he was getting tired so he just might get it over with. He couldn't screw it up anymore anyway, so let's just break it completely and go back to sleep, eh?

Not like that. he said, still shaking his head. That whole thought process only took a half of a second. I wasn't in love with him or anything. But I was very attached, because William could read my thoughts and around him it didn't seem to matter that I didn't want to talk like it mattered around other people. He also didn't seem afraid of the wings and has even gone flying with me and to that stupid cliff jumping trip. So, all in all, I really liked my new friend, especially because I didn't have one like him before... and that was a story from his past-of his past-that he did not want to tell, not here, not ever so after he comes to my room being all upset that one night, I get this idea that you have hurt him and it doesn't really help that you don't like me either. And it won't leave me alone, so it had to explode sometime. he sighed, looking away. Like I said. The way I had build myself, it was inevitable. It wasn't really the healthiest way to live anyway. And that's why I wanted to apologize, and see if I can mend this mess I have created, now that I can see that I was wrong. However, I was hoping to avoid telling your both this stupid story, for I know how it will sound to you: like a bunch of excuses. And maybe that's right. But it is also the truth.

jenni · Apr 27, 2014

Michael did act like a jealous person who felt unrequited love, no matter how much he denied it. Both Gabriel and Bill thought he might be in love with Bill because of the way he was acting, though even if he was in love with Bill he sure had a strange way of showing it.

"Hmmm see buddy I'm trying to see your point here," Gabe assured him through clenched teeth, "I know you and Bill were good friends and it was sweet that he had someone else that was close to him aside from me, but I don't know why you flipped out on me. You were attached to Bill yes, but what did that really have to do with me? It wasn't like I was telling him not to hang around with you." He took a breath and spat, "I know for a fact that you told him to leave me."

Gabe sighed as Michael went on, " yes I'm pretty sure you've said that before. I don't know though I mean if you were really that angry you could have come and yelled at me the night you thought I hurt him rather than months later surely?" He raised an eyebrow. "I guess I can understand how you were keeping things pent up but...you didn't really have a right to take it out on me."

To be honest, Gabriel didn't know why Michael was bothering to try and mend the friendship it wasn't as if he and Bill could just look past what had happened.

Clockwise Dream · Apr 27, 2014

I did not wish to yell at you that night, Gabriel. Michael sighed, leaning against a wall and dropping his bag on the floor as it was starting to get heavy. I wished to find you and then drop you from the highest point I could fly to. William stopped me, saying that he didn't want that, that it was all his fault, things like that. So I believed it, and left it alone. And had he really told William to leave Gabriel? Yeah, he did, he remembered it now. It was that night, when William came crying to him. But wasn't that only natural? To tell your friend to leave the person who was making them cry? He did not know anymore. He was getting tired. It was obvious that Gabriel wasn't going to look past what has happened. So why was he still trying exactly?

Probably because it seemed rude to leave in the middle of the conversation, Nothing more, nothing less.

And I don't know what happened that day. I don't remember. he said, closing his eyes. He really didn't, not all of it at least. But something we said had made me explode. And yes it was wrong and yes it cannot be forgotten... but... he was tired. So tired. Why did he do this again? Why did he want to mend the friendship when there was obviously no such wish on the other end. Oh, yeah...

It tasted bitter. he remembered. The fight. For months every time I would remember it I would get this bitter taste in my mouth and it wouldn't go away no matter how much I tried to ignore it. And then as things got better for me I started to realize that I had been wrong. standing up, he picked up his bag again.

I don't know any more. I'm just tired. Just wanted to apologize. That's all. Sorry to bother ya.

jenni · Apr 27, 2014

Gabe laughed out loud at that, but it was not because he found there to be anything funny about it - quite the opposite actually. "Oh wow brilliant! You wanted to drop me off a cliff or whatever, that's a great way to make me want to be friends with you!" He shook his head, "yeah, of course Bill did, he loves me. Besides that's what any rational person would do seen as that would have you know probably killed me."

"Oh, and Michael you know, I've tried not to bring this up until now but you're pretty much a huge hypocrite!" Gabe chirped, with a smile. "You are here ranting to me about how much I hurt Bill and how he came crying to you, and yes I regret that but remember that day I came to you to yell at you? When you forced Bill to go flying with you and terrified the poor boy out of his skin? Do you remember that?" He had gone dangerously quiet.

"You endangered my boyfriend's life, DO YOU REMEMBER THAT?" He let all his anger rip, his voice going to the complete opposite level of what it had been before. "Of course you were wrong," Gabe snarled.

Clockwise Dream · Apr 27, 2014

Michael sighed. Gabriel still wasn't getting it. And one hand, he understood why. On the other, it just tired him to no end. But he have already said, and thought, that he was tired multiple times. So he bit his tongue, both physically and mentally, and tried to explain once more.

I remember. he said, calmly, even though Gabriel had seemed to have lost his. If you want me to say that I'm sorry for that too, I will. Sorry for taking William flying. I'm fairly certain it won't happen again. he thought in his head, but did not say. There really was no point in angering the other man even more. However, you seemed to have forgotten that half of what I've been saying is not true any more. I am not ranting to you about anything. I am trying to explain why I acted the way I did because you asked for me to do so. And none of those reasons are either rational, good, or logical. They are barely reasons at all when looked at it objectively. And that's the point of it all. I wasn't seeing it objectively, I was seeing it how I imagined it in my head, and yes, that's why I wanted to drop you from a cliff, because at that time I did not want to be your friend. At that time, Gabriel. Not any more. he sighed again, quietly. He had a feeling Gabriel would take this the wrong way again.

And that is why I wanted to apologize. Because I was wrong. I think I said it at least three times already. And all I want to know is if you're willing to telieve me and look past it or not. That will be enough. In case that you both do forgive me, I will be content with that. I will not try to forge any new friendship with any of you because I know that things can never be the same. I will be content with being forgiven. If you choose not to forgive me, simply say so, and I will go on doing as I did for the last few months. I do not hold classes anymore because I have to attend my own, so neither your or William will have to see me ever again.

jenni · Apr 28, 2014

"You think a simple sorry is enough for endangering somebody's life?" Gabe asked, narrowing his eyes. "Hahaha yeah Michael great you've said sorry! I forgive you!" His tone was drenched in sarcasm, and his eyes were shooting daggers. You know the saying... if looks could kill...

"So basically from all that you've said what I've established is that you were being biased," Gabe shrugged, "and sure that might be a legitimate reasons for your actions, but it sure doesn't make me want to have anything to do with you ever again." His voice had gone cold again, though his anger hadn't ebbed away. If Bill had been close he would be able to feel the strength of the anger the man was emitting.

"You sure are a strange man," Gabriel spat, "there's plenty of people I don't want to be friends with and you know what I do? I ignore them and get on with my life, I don't go and try throw them off a freaking cliff." He scowled, "I could kill you Michael I really could, not for what you tried to do to me, but for the emotional trauma you've put poor William through."

"No, I don't forgive you." Gabe finished with a look of disgust. "And I hope to God what you said about Bill and I never having to see you again is true, because I swear I won't be able to help myself if we do." He left the threat hanging.

Clockwise Dream · Apr 28, 2014

A deep silence. And then a sense of relief. It hasn't ended the way he had wanted it to, and it did not make the things better, but it has, however, ended. For a moment, that seemed to be enough. And he was never the one to chase after what he wanted too much. If he didn't get it the first time, he usually gave up. There, Gabriel was right. He was a strange man. He smiled.

Thank you, Gabriel. he nodded, shifting his bag at his shoulder, feeling three tones lighter than he did before the talk. He didn't want to go his apartment anymore. If anything, he just might to flying. And don't worry, you will most definitely not see me again. With that, he turned his back to the other man and walked.

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