My Tears of Blood

Tears of Blood

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Though my love is ignored, I will still feel it for Her,
because She is the light that gives me hope, the reason I wake up.
If my love for Her were to stop, as if to end, My life would follow it.
She may not think the same for me, but I will look for Her,
my Light shining through the darkness, my angel from the heavens...

Her...
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My Love for her not mutual,
My lust for her undenying,
And my heartache is like a poison,
Eroding my body away, killing my very soul...
If only I could tell her, and end my suffering.
But for better, or for worst, only She can say...
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It hurts more than I can bear...
This pain, this sorrow...
Why does my heart torture me so?
I know it isn't possible, that it can never come true,
But my cursed heart is as stubborn as ever...
It would be a favor for anyone to end this poor wretch's suffering...
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My love denied, I exile myself into
the deepest confines of an abyss,
so dark, so endless, yet somehow,
so similar to my broken heart,
the pain never-ending, for She unknowingly
has truly slain all that I am, and
all the dreams I had wished to come true...
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She left me broken,
She left me untwined,
She abandoned me
for all of time...

I gave her my heart,
I gave her my soul,
Who was I but
Just a fool?

She shut me out,
She left me for dead,
It would have been easier
Had she cut off my head...

She was my angel,
I loved her so,
But all she did
Was cause me woe...

'Till death do we part...
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Just when my heart was about to lock itself shut,
She came...

I told myself, 'Never again', but then
She came...

She caused me much happiness,
and yet, much pain...

The joy of being with her, yet
the pain of my unconfessed love for her,
My perfect angel...
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Love has betrayed me,
Happiness denied me,
Grief has slain me,
Jealousy haunts me,
Envy calls me,
And Hate watches as I wither and die...
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My life, she sucks from my lips,
My mind, she drives crazy with every touch, and
My heart she inherited the day her eyes met mine...
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The joy, the sorrow,
The happiness, the pain,
They all wage war on the
Battleground that is my heart,
Which She plays with like
A puppet on a string...
Can't She just say the 3
words that will save me from
Eternal Abyss...?
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I love her, I care for her, but these
Feelings are forbidden by the cursed Fates...
I can never be with the goddess that is She...
I try to tell myself, 'It can never be,'
But my heart just won't shut her out...
She tortures me with every playful touch,
Every sweet word, thinking it's nothing but a game...
Well, in this game, all I can do...
Is lose...
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A glimmer of hope, a silver lining,
these are the things I see,
for a new door has opened, and through it,
I can finally confess my love for her.
My days grow brighter and brighter,
as I can finally see that maybe, just maybe,
She may love me back...
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I turn around, only to see nothing.
No matter how hard I search,
there is nobody there...
I finally know how it feels to be alone,
unwillingly severed from the rest of the world...
My existance forgotten, I wander down endless paths,
truly Abandoned...
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My feelings cursed, my love torn,
and my life damned to the
pits of Hell itself, as I finally
realise that there is no 'What if',
and there is no 'Maybe'.
Everything I once wanted is now
shattered and blown into the same
cursed winds that blew
this horrid love my way...
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As hard as I try to get close
to her, she pushes me away...
I want to tell her, I want her to know...
but as long as she keeps her barrier strong,
I cannot break through...
Oh, these feeling I have for her
ache to be released, yet I must
somehow pent them inside,
until the day she lets me in...
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I have not won, yet I have not lost.
I cannot have her, yet she is still mine.
My heart is bent, but it is not broken.
I only saw things in black and white,
but now i see the gray inbetween, and I must say
I could not ask for anything better than this...
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This hatred brewing inside me,
this monster tearing me apart...
I fear it more than I fear death itself.
No matter how hard i try to supress it
into the farthest corner of my mind,
It still threatens to take over
and destroy my very soul.

That is Jealousy...
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Did I lose a lover,
or gain a friend?
It doesnt matter,
It's still the end...

For once in my life,
I felt true love,
She looked at me
from up above...

The wretch I am,
the angel She was,
I felt it was fate,
But then it was 'Just because'...

I knew it was over,
that with me, she was through,
But I couldn't help
but say 'I love you'...

A part of me died
on that cursed day,
and when I look back,
I see where I lay...

My Fallen Angel,
So perfect, so true,
but now that I look back,
Its all just a hazy hue...

Inside, I am shattered,
Inside, I am torn,
For now, my heart
is but a raging storm.

We used to be happy,
we used to be carefree,
but true love was never meant
for a wretch like me...

Sometimes I wonder,
sometimes I dream...
Can not I be happy
in this big scheme?

But now that its over,
I look back at you,
and remember how close
I came to saying 'I do'...
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I am confused, torn between the realms of reality.
I long to love, yet I do not recieve it.
Why am I denied love without pain?
It hurts to know that the one I love does not feel the same,
yet at the same time I realize it was never meant to be...
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For once, I am truly confused by my heart.
Where once there was one, now there are two.
My love is divided, my soul is split, yet how can I go on?
The Goddesses of Fire and Water... can I possibly love them both?
They torture my heart, yet I ache for them so...
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We lived in peace
On a world far away.
We stayed with each other
Until that one fateful day.

The darkness came
In the dead of night
We didn't have a chance
To stand up and fight

I tried to protect you
from the onslaught of the dark
But what I saw when I turned
Truly broke my everloving heart.

A portal of darkness
lay underneath your feet
I grasped for your hand
But yours never did meet.

I watched you sink
into that black hole.
I think when it closed
it shattered my soul.

I closed my eyes
awiting my death,
for without you
I didnt want breath.

I awoke in a place
unknown to the eye,
Where people told me
I fell from the sky.

From that day forward
I wandered, place to place
Searching for someway
to again see your face...
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The end. Is there such a thing?
Are we forever cursed to go on?
Or is this curse actually a blessing?
To have and to hold, to lose and to hold dear.
The eternal paradox we will all go through.
Will we ever see the bright light at the end of the tunnel?
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'Why' is the question so many ask.
Do they ever get an answer?
Or just more questions?
To not be able to help the ones you hold dear...
It is enough to destroy one's soul.
I would rather burn in the eternal pits of Hell
Than unwillingly watch a loved one suffer...
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To be inferior, to be irrelevant.
To be inadequate, to be insignificant.
The darkness around me, the chaos inside me.
The light I seek, the peace that has been expelled.
I am complex, I wish to be simple.
I am dirty, I wish to be clean.
Am I dead? I don't seem to be alive.
Am I forgotten? I don't seem to be remembered.
If only I could be recognized,
If only I could not be ignored.
If only I could realise the truth,
If only I could get out of the lies.
This life is a puzzle. I've lost all the pieces...
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Slowly, time passes by,
and along with it do the winds of Change.
Cursed to follow me whereever I go,
these Hellish winds torment me with every gust.
Everyone is changing...
Even the ones that I've held the closest
are beginning to erode away due to the constant squalls
produced from this demonic current.
As they do, my heart slowly withers away,
watching as I am seperated from the ones
I once thought would never leave,
as they turn their backs and saunter away,
forgetting the bond we once had.
Must they all walk into the forsaken
twister that is the winds of Change?
Or do they give themselves to it, willingly
tossing me away like old trash?
The invisible tears I shed are just that: invisible,
for they obviously cannot see what they do
to my soul, piercing it as if it were nothing...

And along comes another breeze from the winds of Change...
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She loves me.
She loves me not.
She's the snare in
Which my heart is caught.

I wish She could see
All the love I hold
But to tell her such things
Would be to kill me cold.

I would jump off the face
of this place called home
Just to make sure
That her smile shone.

To watch her love
That other soul...
Shes ripping my heart,
Making it unwhole.

If ever I am to reach
An eternal bliss,
Then all she must do
is give me a simple kiss.

Until the day
That her heart is mine
I must slowly watch
And bide my time...


If it's too much, I'm sorry. I just copied and posted them from another site. They are mine, though.

if they are too... riske (sp), ill delete them.
 

Danica Martinez

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Two Words:

Not worthy. *bows down*


Holy my goodness! That was amazing! *applauds*

NOT A TALENT? ARE YOU SERIOUS? SAY THAT AGAIN AND I'LL LIKE GO... UM... AWAY... and of course you wouldn't want that considering how awesome I am.

But I'm getting off topic, this is not a mere hobby. You are incredibly talented.
 
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Thank you for agreeing, tell him he's talented again. He doesn't believe anyone when they tell him that... of course I think he just says that for attetion but that's just my two sense... :D
 

Tears of Blood

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One, its CENTS!!! CENTS!!! >.<

And two, its not a talent. Honestly, I've seen others much better. But if you really think it's a talent, I'll start calling it that, seeing as I apparently don't want to go away... or something.
 

Danica Martinez

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Yeah, or something is about the best answer to anything I've said...

It is so totally a talent! But you better start calling it talent! Or... like... skitlets or something...

*shaking head* Not a talent... *saracastic snort*
 
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You really shouldn't belittle your work...it can only be extraordinary if you believe it is not ordinary...

Boy, that sucked. They were really good okay?
 

Tears of Blood

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Hehe. Thanks. I guess I was worried because everyone else who read them, I knew personally, so they just didn't want to hurt meh feelings.

Which can't happen xD Thanks tho.
 

Tears of Blood

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There is no difference between life and death.
I see that now, having realised lifes one and only purpose.
Life and death are stereotypes... when in reality, they go much deeper.
You can be alive and dead. I am the 'living' proof.
Just because one's heart beats and one's mind functions
Does not make them alive. That just means that they are not fully dead.
There is no such thing as a full life. There cannnot be...
There is only one conclusion. That we are dead when we open our eyes.
And dead when we close them eternally.
Death, under mortal terms, means the death of body.
Death, under my terms, means death of soul.
Loss of emotion. Loss of feeling. Loss of happiness.
After all, how can one live without the aforementioned?
No one is alive. They are all just living the illusion of life.
Being misguided. Being cursed by their own self-indulgence in a fake reality.
After coming to this particular conclusion, I have realised everything.
Life does not exist. The word is like a misread prophecy, giving the world false hope.
Knowing all of this, do you still believe you live?
If so, you are as ignorant as the rest, all as stubborn as the mule.
All it will lead to is self-destruction. No one sees that yet.
But I do. I see it brighter than the sun shines its cursed rays upon us,
Much like the false prophecy... the false hope.
One say, the sun will not shine, and humanity will realise the true meaning of death.
The will all lose their emotions, their feelings. Their very soul will be ripped from them.
Shredded, shattered, and all out obliterated due to their false beliefs.
And even through all this, I still have one question.

Are you really alive?
 
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