Private Finished I don't want to go...

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Yuki sat at a bench, absentmindedly nursing a cup of hot chocolate to warm his frozen fingers and frozen heart. A gust of cold autumn wind blew harshly, bringing leaves with it. He stared at a leaf that had landed at his feet, brown and decaying. Powerless. Spineless. Pathetic.
He sighed, mulling the events over in his head... he felt ready to cry.

"Yuki... I think it's time we brought you back to Tokyo."

The words hit him like a wall, slamming into his chest and crushing his heart as his stomach dropped through the floor. What did she mean? How could she say that? Yuki had just begun to get used to life at Mantra Carlos - he had friends, clubmates, even a crush! He felt safe here. Accepted. He didn't need to hide his powers or be worried about the bullying, the insults, the constant pressure he felt to please everyone. And now that was all going to be taken away?!

He dropped the cookies he'd worked all week to perfect, the teapot on the tray smashing to the floor and scalding his toes, ruining his favourite slippers. "I... I..." He couldn't. He couldn't disobey his parents. He had to do what they wanted, and yet... He didn't want to go!

He ran to his room, hastily throwing on a jacket and changing into jeans before dashing out, ignoring the protests of his parents and helpers. "I need time to think." He muttered meekly, knowing it was hardly a decent excuse.

And that was how he ended up here. Putting the chocolate on the floor and his head in his hands, he began to cry. Ugly, childish tears. Meek little sobs that he couldn't even bring himself to show to his family. "What am I going to do...?" He whispered to himself.
 

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Carmin had begun coming to the park more often lately. It was actually a pretty good reading spot seeing as how it made for a nice setting and wasn't too busy most of the time.

Today, he was just sitting against a tree reading a book. Judging by the leaves, he probably wouldn't be able to do that for much longer before it got too cold, so he was just going to enjoy it while he could. Or at least that was the plan. In the middle of his book he began to hear... crying?

He poked his head out from behind the tree to get a better look and sure enough, someone was sitting there crying. He figured they probably didn't know he was there thanks to the position of the tree, so it would likely be best for him to sneak away. Except, the person was Yuki?

If you knew the person who was upset did that mean you were supposed to go try to comfort them? But then how well did he even know Yuki? He was just this generally pretty happy dude that showed up at the community center a lot. Maybe that was why it felt so wrong, he was usually happy, so seeing him sad stung more? Either way, he felt somewhat obligated to go check on the guy.

Reluctantly, Carmin packed up his stuff and walked up to the bench. "Um, hey Yuki? Are you okay?"
 

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Yuki flinched, trying to stop his crying but failing miserably. He was a mess right now - how could he face someone in this state? "C-Carmin...?" He sniffled, looking at the teen through his fingers. He felt so ashamed. How long had he been there? How many people had seen his failure? How much lower could Yuki even sink?

"I-I'm sorry..." The albino turned his face away to blow his nose. Wiping an eye, he tried to muster up as much dignity as he could. "You-- shouldn't... have to see me like this..." He tried laughing, but all that would come out was a sad gasp. His breath kept catching in his chest as the tears kept flowing - why couldn't he just grow up already, dammit?! Why did he always have to be so useless?! He'd never be useful to anyone the way he was now. He'd never be able to do anything if he stayed this way. Who would ever love him like this?

"I...um..." He tried desperately to search for something to talk about, anything — as long as it took the edge off of this feeling. He couldn't breathe properly - his lungs felt tight and his shoulders kept shaking, betraying the composure he was so desperately trying to pretend he had. "I..."

The words trailed off, unspoken.
 

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Lavender was wandering around, trying to sort out the things around here.

"Uh... Hello? Is everything alright here-" Lavender's words cut in middle. "Oh... I totally understand this situation. I should just leave you guys alone." says Lavender, slowly leaving the 2 alone; sometimes, it is best to leave people alone in situations like this.
 

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A couple different thoughts were going through Carmin's mind. Though the strongest one was telling him he'd bitten off more than he could chew. He was not the guy for this. In fact, there was a good chance he was going to make it worse. But it wasn't like he could just leave now, at this point it was too late. Besides, he probably would've felt guilty if he just left Yuki there like that. He'd started seeing a therapist, so perhaps he could just recycle stuff that they had told him for Yuki.

That was when a young girl he'd never seen before showed up. Assuming that Yuki probably didn't want to meet a new face in his current state, Carmin was about to tell them that this was a bad time. However, it looked like she picked up on it herself and scampered away.

"Uh, Yuki... It's fine. It's okay to cry." Carmin felt a little odd saying these words. He was kind of being a hypocrite. "If you just bottle up your feelings then they're going to build up and explode so you're honestly better off letting it out."
 

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Yuki finally managed a breath or two. Meek, but it was something. He wiped his tears again like it would change something. A girl seemed to hover around the general vicinity for a moment, but she left before long. Yuki was grateful for the privacy.

"I..." He sniffled, slowly regaining his control. "You're probably right..." He blew his nose again, hoping that the tissues he'd left in his jacket pocket wouldn't run out before he stopped crying. "I just... I feel so stupid." He started explaining himself even though he hadn't been invited to. He felt bad that Carmin had to deal with his stupid little outburst, but if talking about it really helped, then... He might as well give it a try before things got worse.

"I don't want to leave the island. My mum told me... she said it might be time for me to return. But I don't... I don't want to go. I've already settled in here, and every day is actually fun. I'm happy, and even though I keep making mistakes... I love it here. I can be me." Yuki managed to smile a little amidst the tears.

"But now that might all be taken away. I don't want to go back, but... how do I say no? How can I refuse the ones who raised me?" He looked at Carmin, eyes pleading for some kind of answer that he probably couldn't give. Why was Yuki telling him all this anyway? What would even change...?
 

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Carmin kept silent and listened to Yuki as he explained his dilemma. He thought about what was said carefully before responding. This was certainly not his strong suit but he tried his best. "That's uh... Going somewhere you don't want to is definitely tough, I see why you'd be upset." Carmin rubbed the back of his neck, trying to think of what to say.

"Have you told them that you don't want to leave? I'm sure they care a lot about you, they have to if they're your parents. Kids don't always have a say when it comes to moving, but it's probably worth it to tell them how you feel just in case." This didn't seem like something Carmin was going to be able to help much with. At the end of the day, it came down to Yuki's parents.
 

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"But that's the thing..." He sniffled, the sorrow fading as a troubled look crossed his face. "I don't know how to tell them." The boy began to pace back and forth, thoughts racing through his mind as he began to chew on his thumbnail. "I mean, to even mention not wanting to do something they've asked would be a first for me..." The very thought pained him. He'd be going against everything he'd ever been taught!

"I want to tell them, though... but I can't do it alone. I'd need to prove that I'm safe and happy here... The long night fiasco really did a number on them." His face crumpled as his mind cast back to that terrifying day. Not being able to contact anyone and wondering if he'd ever see the sun again... it was hard. "I'd also need to show that this place is good for me. They're very protective, so..." He trailed off. Hopefully Carmin would get the point. It wasn't like Yuki didn't want help, but proving he could stay would be...difficult. Yuki's future hung in the balance.
 

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Carmin frowned. "So is that the reason they're moving in the first place? Because it isn't safe here?" He couldn't honestly blame them, Manta Carlos did appear to be a pretty hazardous place.

"Protective parents usually just care a lot about you, right? Which means they probably don't want you to pretend you're happy and go along with whatever. They'd probably want to know if something was bothering you." Carmin wasn't too sure he knew what he was talking about. Thus the overuse of the word probably.
 

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Yuki nodded, listening to Carmin's advice. He might be right... "Maybe...maybe I'll tell them. Soon. But before that..." He chuckled a little. "Maybe I should stop crying." He wiped away what seemed to be the last of his tears for now. "I, um... thank you for the help. I know it must've been hard to approach a crying kid you barely know..." He laughed a little more, a small ray of hope shining through the sadness. After blowing his nose again, he picked up his lukewarm hot chocolate.

"When I tell them... do you think you could come along? I know it's a lot to ask, so... if you don't want to, I don't mind. I understand." He smiled meekly, scratching his cheek nervously.
 
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