Though she finally allowed herself to sleep properly, her internal state required work. She had to Google what counseling was after having it suggested to her. Her society lacked proper mental healthcare. Why worry about the mind when you had to worry about living? Plus the infectious apathy of the rulers sprinkled down into the population. Her family would be clear ringers for sociopaths...but not her. She was different somehow.
The act of entering the office felt humiliating as she was seeking help. Who in their right mind would go to anyone for help? Help was for the weak; it was for those unworthy of the throne. Yet she felt such pain; internally she cried out with the desire to make sense of the world. Outwardly she kept a haughty expression. Her head slightly lifted, her feet moving in a purposeful strut, her uniform skirt just a bit too short. With her demeanor she visibly judged those she would come across.
@Romi
The act of entering the office felt humiliating as she was seeking help. Who in their right mind would go to anyone for help? Help was for the weak; it was for those unworthy of the throne. Yet she felt such pain; internally she cried out with the desire to make sense of the world. Outwardly she kept a haughty expression. Her head slightly lifted, her feet moving in a purposeful strut, her uniform skirt just a bit too short. With her demeanor she visibly judged those she would come across.
@Romi