dream of demons while you sleep

Knox! · Feb 3, 2014

<div align=center>It was unlikely that William would kill himself. He simply wasn't brave enough to ever do that. He drew a deep breath, and slowly pushed himself to his feet. He wanted to get dressed and sleep for the next few hours, he'd asked to get dressed a little while ago, but that request had been ignored. It probably would have been a lot safer for Gabe to fulfill that request, instead of merely ignoring it. William was cold and scared. There might have been a hint of resentment deep down, but only because of the fact that he had been ignored instead of the opposite. Some questions are better left unanswered. This had dangled William off the edge and threatened to drop him, but he found himself on steady ground again, albeit he could see the drop before him.

William heard I don't know if I want to touch you right now. Instead of what Gabe had actually said, so he just whimpered and nodded. "That's okay," he mumbled, "I wouldn't wanna touch me even when I hadn't just done that." He muttered, shuffling out into the bedroom and leaving Gabe there in the bathroom. He pulled open the first drawer he could find and rummaged around for whatever clothes he could wear. "I don't have any pyjamas," he called, quietly, "I'm taking your clothes."</div>

jenni · Feb 5, 2014

Gabe glanced at William waiting for him to speak. The boy was acting cold towards Gabe, and Gabe didn't know why. He was trying his best to find light of this situation and surely Bill could see that, surely he could tell that Gabe could have reacted a lot lot worse.

'I wouldn't wanna touch me even when I hadn't just done that' "What?" Gabe tilted his head, confused, and then shook it. "I didn't say I didn't want to touch you, what are you talking about?" He frowned, "what I meant was that I want to hug you but I wasn't sure if you wanted me to. Bill I love you please don't act like I don't."

Gabe sighed and got to his feet,
"come on, I'll help you get dressed." He walked over to Bill, offering the boy his hand.

Knox! · Feb 5, 2014

<div align=center>William didn't think he was acting cold one bit, he just didn't really want to be here anymore. Whether here was this room, or just alive in general, wasn't really clear. He took Gabe's hand when it was offered, though loosely, that grip tightened a second later though, to an almost bone-crushing sort of hold. He was going to cry again, he'd started shivering again and he was trying desperately to hold the tears back. "I.. I... Clothes... Y.. Yes please..." He stammered, tensing up and biting down hard on his lower lip. He drew a breath, and burst into a fresh bout of tears, despite how hard he'd tried to force them back. This was perhaps one of the situations where his crying hadn't been mere attention seeking, it didn't happen very often, but it was sad when it did. Bill was completely helpless right now, or so it seemed. He wanted to curl up and go back to sleep again, but he was so terrified of having another bad dream, that sleep seemed scary right now.

He clung desperately to Gabe's hand, the other hand clinging to the towel so it wouldn't fall down. It had probably been a bad idea to put comfort right in front of the boy and not give it to him, that was perhaps the opposite of the way to go about things. "I want to get dressed now, please let me get dressed." He whimpered, though there wasn't really much Gabe was doing that was stopping him from getting dressed.</div>

jenni · Feb 6, 2014

Gabe nearly let his own tears spill when the boy gripped his hand so tight, he needs me . He realised, and for the first time he thought that maybe he could be the one to help Bill recover, he resolved to try his hardest to do that.

"C'mere," Gabe couldn't resist from touching Bill, even if there was a chance what just happened could happen again. He pulled the boy in for a hug, and gripped him tight. "I love you." He breathed into the boy's ear, "I love you so so much." He kept repeating that phrase over and over again hoping to drill it into Bill's skull.

"Well of course you can," Gabe nodded, "I'm not stopping you from getting dressed." He decided perhaps he should just take out some of his clothes and dress Bill in them, the teen wasn't in the right state to get dressed himself.

Knox! · Feb 6, 2014

<div align=center>It was more or less completely true. There wasn't anyone else William would want to strive for and do well for, so Gabe probably was the only one that could essentially save him from himself. He was grateful for his presence, despite having just attacked him, accidentally mind you. William would never do a thing like that on purpose, not to Gabe at least. He went limp when the boy pulled him close, mumbling something incoherent and latching onto him with one arm. "Love you too." He mumbled, frowning a little and shuffling his feet on the carpet just a little.

He didn't resist at all to Gabe dressing him, though it probably would have been easier for both of them if he'd just done it himself. He didn't really want to, and besides, his mind was all over the place and he'd probably have ended up putting everything on backwards. They weren't really clothes though, more of an over sized shirt and a pair of underwear. Bill didn't mind all that much though, they smelled like Gabe and it made him feel fuzzy and comfortable. It was unlikely Gabe would see both the items again after this, but right now they were going to a good cause. "I'm sorry."</div>

jenni · Feb 6, 2014

Love you too , It wasn't a completely new phenomenon to hear this but right now it meant the world to Gabe. At least Bill was listening to him, and was responding a little instead of looking like he was going to explode from his own guilt as he had been a few minutes before.

Gabe felt incredibly sorry for the teen. He knew exactly what kind of effect guilt had on you, it just tended to eat you away inside. That being said, the worst guilt Gabe had experienced was when he had tried to force Bill to do things the boy was wary and unsure about. However the guilt Bill was experiencing right now must feel a thousand times worse, the whole situation was a lot worse. Gabe was also pretty sure this had happened before and that's why his boyfriend hated himself so much, even before all of this.

"I know," Gabe assured him, there wasn't a doubt in his mind that it had been accidental and that William had had no control of the matter. "It wasn't your fault, querido."

Knox! · Feb 6, 2014

<div align=center>William wanted to sleep and never wake up again. Bad dreams came with sleep though, and he wasn't sure whether he'd rather stake it out in reality right now or be tormented in his sleep. He went with the earlier suggestion, he wasn't sure he could take another bad dream right now. He was beginning to feel nauseous again, though there was nothing to bring up to make him feel better. He quivered again, the room was warm enough, he was just feeling weak and dizzy and his head was starting to hurt. "Do you have any medicine?" He asked quietly, Gabe had already offered him painkillers countless times this morning, so he figured he must have something around.

Of course, in Bill's head it was his fault entirely, the more Gabe said that the more it made him want to scream. It was completely his fault. He was the one that couldn't control himself. Who else was to blame? "I killed a boy like that before." He mumbled, almost too quietly for Gabe to hear it. That wasn't entirely true, though William blamed himself for the boy's eventual death. "He hit me and made fun of me. So I made him want to die." He'd told Micheal that a little while ago, though he'd regretted it ever since. The moment it had left his lips that time he'd wanted to snatch it back up and force it back into his head. Bill spent most of his life pretending it hadn't even happened. "He screamed so loud that everyone thought I had killed him right there."</div>

jenni · Feb 6, 2014

"Yeah I have some pain killers," Gabe told him, going over to the cabinet. "Does your head hurt or somewhere else?" He had headache tablets, and generic painkillers - paracetamol and the likes. He also had that children's liquid medicine which he had got especially for Bill, it was next to impossible to find ones that worked on adults, Bill was still young though so it was okay.

'I killed a boy like that before ', Gabe's heart took a lurch. He couldn't imagine Bill ever killing anybody. He was too gentle. He let the boy continue on with what he was going to say before saying anything. ' I made him want to die' . Gabe could see how a scenario similar to what had just happened moments before could make a person want to die.

"You didn't do it on purpose did you?" Gabe asked, referring to the incident with the boy he mentioned. "Make him want to die?" He didn't think Bill could have done it on purpose, "or was it out of anger or something like that?" The boy had been bullying Bill, he could see how constant torment could make Bill lose control of his powers. "He doesn't sound like a charming guy," Gabe told him, "it's pretty serious that he killed himself but you mustn't blame yourself for it. He tormented you, he was the one who caused you to get so riled up you lost control of your powers..." Gabe was at a loss as to how to make Bill not blame himself.

Knox! · Feb 7, 2014

<div align=center>William would absolutely refuse point blank to take tablets of any kind. It didn't matter how important they were, you'd practically have to force them down his throat to get him to take them. Gabe didn't know the extent of it yet, he just knew that William didn't like taking pills very much. Then again, William didn't like taking medicine at all. It tasted horrible and made his throat feel strange. He wasn't strong enough to put up a fight against Gabe, though. "My head hurts." He mumbled quietly, one hand moving to his forehead. He detached himself from Gabriel, shuffled away and sat himself in the middle of the couch, crossing his legs and dropping his hands to his lap.

William frowned a little, he didn't know if Gabe wanted to know the answer to that or not. "Yeah." He answered quietly. "I did it on purpose." He wasn't sure why Gabe was trying to defend him in this. "But I didn't know... I didn't mean to make that happen... Once I started I couldn't stop again." He supposed he'd lost control a little, but there'd been a thought there in the first place that had driven him toward that. The thought made him frown, he'd repressed the memory until now, and rather desperately wanted to push it back into the deep recesses of his mind once again. It wasn't something he often thought about. There had been something in him that day that had really wanted to hurt that boy.</div>

jenni · Feb 7, 2014

Gabe put the headache tablets in his hand then hesitated,
"So do you want these or would you rather the liquid?" He asked, seen as Bill hadn't really specified. The liquid wouldn't be as effective but he wasn't sure if Bill despised the tablets enough to refuse them.

Gabe's jaw dropped and he quickly tried to cover it up. 'I did it on purpose' , Gabe couldn't believe it, he didn't know what to say. How could you reassure someone after they purposely tried to kill somebody? But this wasn't the same...and what Bill said after it proved that he hadn't tried to kill the boy on purpose.

"But if you didn't know then you didn't do it on purpose," Gabe tilted his head, it didn't make very much sense to him, "like maybe you tried to hurt him on purpose but you never meant to go as far as you did...you must have lost control of your powers if you weren't able to stop...so it's not your fault..." Gabe didn't really think that anything he was saying was helping, and he was a little worried that he was just digging a hole, he was probably making the poor boy feel worse.

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