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- angst bonding friendship oluremi leizu
Tai had much more to let out than he had any awareness of, clinging to Remi and sobbing into her shoulder for a good minute before he could finally manage to talk again. Essentially all of his usual confidence and self assurance had crumbled around him, and he was left feeling alarmingly exposed. ". . .I trust you, I do, and I'm sorry. I've been a garbage friend to you; I blew your advice off before and then I did it again today. I've been a real piece of shit over all of this mess.."
"Tai, I appreciate you're finally considering what I have to say, but don't put yourself down. That won't make you feel better. It'll make you feel worse. The best you can do is know what you did wrong and try to do better from now on. Talking badly about yourself will make what you say true."
Tai had managed to get a hold of himself to a reasonable degree, turning away from Remi to wipe his eyes off with his arm. "I mean, yeah, you're right. It's just really hard not to be pissed at myself right now. I shouldn't have reacted this badly; I'm supposed to be way more resilient of a person. I just..." He trailed off, sighing heavily and pulling a joint from his pocket. He paused before lighting it, looking over to Remi. "Do you mind? I kind of need to calm down a bit."
She went to lean herself against a tree, then picked up a broken branch from the ground to chew on. "Emotions make people act in ways they won't always be proud of, it's fine. At least you did it in private with a friend than causing shit in public. That's when I draw the line." She gave a soft sigh, then turned her head from Tai. "Honestly... I'm embarrassed I acted that way too. I made myself look bad in front of a crush."
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Tai gave Remi a slightly strained smile before taking out his lighter and smoking the joint in a manner that seemed almost panicked, definitely rushed. In truth, after crawling out of the hole he'd just been in during his breaking point, he was still teetering on the precipice of it and liable to fall right back in if he didn't chill a bit. "I appreciate it, and sorry...I'll make it quick."
He decided to take a seat on the ground at this point, fiddling halfheartedly with his shoelaces as he listened attentively to Remi as she spoke. It was an excellent point that this was a better place to do this; he wasn't at all comfortable with the thought of it they'd had to have this conversation surrounded by so many eyes and ears. He perked up slightly when she mentioned a crush, one brow raised to a small degree. "A crush, really? I mean...if you don't mind me asking who it is, I'm willing to talk about it. Maybe I could help somehow if you did actually mess up their impression of you, I don't know."
He decided to take a seat on the ground at this point, fiddling halfheartedly with his shoelaces as he listened attentively to Remi as she spoke. It was an excellent point that this was a better place to do this; he wasn't at all comfortable with the thought of it they'd had to have this conversation surrounded by so many eyes and ears. He perked up slightly when she mentioned a crush, one brow raised to a small degree. "A crush, really? I mean...if you don't mind me asking who it is, I'm willing to talk about it. Maybe I could help somehow if you did actually mess up their impression of you, I don't know."
"Ah, it's, uh, Travis. Or Kaiju. The really tall muscular guy who can turn into an, uh, eight-foot or something like that lizard. I'm pretty sure he's an elementalist, so it's a bit awkward. And I reeeally don't want to mess up." She gave a hard, nervous laugh that sent her into a soft coughing fit.
Tai quirked a brow just the smallest bit at Remi's explanation, but her body language and general mood shift communicated just as much to him, really. Scratching his cheek in contemplation, he eventually gave a stiff nod. "Uhh, yeah. I think I've met him once or twice, seems chill. I'd tell you good luck and all that, but I'm not sure that's a good idea with my track record."
He laughed breathily at that, trying his best to keep it casual with a bit of self deprecation. The reality of it still stung more than he was willing to account for or admit however, and his mildly amused expression fell somewhat at that for a brief moment. "Well, yeah, so...anyway. I'm down to help you out with that somehow or other, whatever that even means. I don't think you'll fuck it up, though."
He laughed breathily at that, trying his best to keep it casual with a bit of self deprecation. The reality of it still stung more than he was willing to account for or admit however, and his mildly amused expression fell somewhat at that for a brief moment. "Well, yeah, so...anyway. I'm down to help you out with that somehow or other, whatever that even means. I don't think you'll fuck it up, though."
"I really appreciate it, Tai. My family's house is nearby. Wanna stop by so I can clean myself up, then we can grab something to eat? I think we both deserve a break. She awkwardly rubbed the back of her hand, not caring that she was spreading more dirt and blood on her. She already had gore covering other parts of her bod. So whether Tai accepted or not, she was getting that bath.
Tai smiled softly at Remi's suggestion to swing by her place; he was genuinely relieved to that his offer to support her with the whole Travis situation was taken well. He considered for a few rather long moments; on one hand he really didn't want to impose any more than he already felt that he had, but on the other it did just sound like a genuinely good time, and well needed after venting all of those rough emotions. "I, uh...yeah. That sounds nice."
He moved over to give her another, gentler hug, paying no mind to the viscera from her hunt that got smeared on him. He'd already gotten some on him anyway, so it wasn't like it particularly mattered. Breaking off, he looked down at his shirt and grinned, scratching his neck. "Ah, well shit. It looks like I could probably stand to get washed up myself, if that's good with you. Then we can grab some...hm. Let's say Mexican, if that sounds fine?" He squeezed his arms around her once more before summoning his cloud to hop onto, letting Remi on as well if she so chose and heading off for her house, and though he felt only marginally better in the grand scheme of things, this had been a first and very impactful step on his way to recovery.
He moved over to give her another, gentler hug, paying no mind to the viscera from her hunt that got smeared on him. He'd already gotten some on him anyway, so it wasn't like it particularly mattered. Breaking off, he looked down at his shirt and grinned, scratching his neck. "Ah, well shit. It looks like I could probably stand to get washed up myself, if that's good with you. Then we can grab some...hm. Let's say Mexican, if that sounds fine?" He squeezed his arms around her once more before summoning his cloud to hop onto, letting Remi on as well if she so chose and heading off for her house, and though he felt only marginally better in the grand scheme of things, this had been a first and very impactful step on his way to recovery.