Confusion

Nitar ran through the hallways and dust kicked up but she ignored it. Her wings drooped as she ran and tears streamed down her face. Her hair was tangled and her hands clenched her head. She soon came to a stop and she fell to her knees, the tears never stopped flowing, though her eyes held an insane look, it was like she had finally snapped into being crazy.

Her lips curled into a smile and she slightly laughed that was shrill with despair and a maniac sound. She moved her hands to the ground that got dirty with dust, and then sipping from her finger tips were purple and black swirling together and it seemed to slither on the ground like a snake, and then it started changing into a miniature of a girl with long hair, though the figure was only black and purple. The figure just stared at her, and Nitar stopped crying and her smile left, and her eyes just showed confusion, knowing that this was not her power, it couldn't be.

"Nitar..." A small voice said coming from the small figure of the girl.

Nitar didn't notice the girl behind her she only looked at the figure. And Nitar reached out her hand to the small figure of the girl, but then the figure changed shapes like a snake and it slithered back into Nitar's fingers. Nitar looked at her hand and fear was inside them. "What is happening, who was that figure, I seem like a know that voice, but who is it? what is it? that was not my powers, what is happening? who are you? what are you? tell me? tell me, who I am, what I am!" She nearly screamed, still not seeingthe girl behind her.

Her eyes always showed confusion, and great fear. She seemed to be shaking in fear, and she felt cold, and the tears were falling from her eyes, she wanted to know what had just happened, she wants to know a lot more then who the girl was. Her wings still drooped around her, and random things started floating around her, not because she is angry, only confused. It was a bit before she relized someone else was in the hallways, and she quickly turned her head. "Who are you?!" She said angrily her eyes sunddenly blazing with an anger that wasn't there before.

Nitar calmed a bit when the girl laid her hand on Nitar's shoulder and said her name, but then Ember asked if she was alright. But Nitar didn't know, she wants to know, but she can't. Her eyes looked up at the girl and there was confusion in her ice blue eyes. "I don't know, I can't tell if I'm alright."

As she had talked a tear found it's way from her eyes and it drip to the ground that was covered in dust. She shut her eyes tight, and her hands clenched into a fist, as she tryed to remember her past again, but then her eyes opened, that still looked sad.

Nitar felt strange, no one had ever comforted her in this newer life she has been living, and it made her wonder further. This new feeling, makes me wonder... She thought, the most feelings she has felt before were anger, confusion, and fear. Never mind, it doesn't matter, I'll always wonder, she thought taking a deep breath.

She took the tissue that was handed to her, but she didn't use it for anything, she just looked at it, and ran her fingers on it. "But what if it's not OK?! I don't think I'll ever be OK. Not anymore, just because I don't even know my past!" She said in a angered voice, and another tear fell from her eyes, but she wiped it away with the tissue.

Nitar was quiet to what Ember said first then to what she said second she thought, long and hard trying to remember. "I don't remember how I lost my past, the old man..." And suddenly the man's name appeared in her head. "Eldon... He told me I lost my memory running through a forest. He also said people killed my mother." She said in a sad tone.

"No matter how hard I try, I cannot even remember anything, even when I look at sketch's, that I think I've drawn in my past." She said her wings shifting. She rested her hands on her lap, no more tears came from her eyes.