Finally, after what seemed like hours, the theater began to fill with people awaiting a night of wonderful music. Of course, keenly aware of passing time, Sabriel knew that it hadn’t actually been hours. It had only been one hour and 25 minutes since she had sat down to tune the piano she would be playing that evening to utter perfection. Tune a piano in 30 minutes? Sabrie smirked for a moment as she watched people wander in. Yes, she could, and not just because someone had just tuned it the day before.
She wasn’t picky—well, okay, she was, but everyone would be just as particular if she heard notes the way she did. She sat until she was confident that the entire piano would sound to the audience the very voices of angels. If only she were as sure of her dress as the sound of her music, but she didn’t have the same control over the quality of fabric as the quality of sound.
It wasn’t that she was nervous, she told herself, because of course she would perform wonderfully. Rather, it was more like… when no one’s opinion in particular mattered suddenly everyone’s opinion mattered. It was precisely when you had no one to impress that you should impress everyone if only because no safety net of someone, anyone, that mattered would be there to pick you up again in the event of disaster.
Okay, maybe she was a little picky and a little nervous.
Oh well.
It was a combination of both nerves and sitting for a long period of time that brought her to the foyer of the music hall that evening. It usually made her feel a little better if she had a chance to mingle a little bit with the people who would be listening to her music. Sometimes she talked to a lot of people briefly; sometimes she only talked to a few, but either way it reminded her that her audience was, in fact, made of normal people and not hundreds of judgmental clones of herself.
And that was important, because she was her worst critic.
She wasn’t picky—well, okay, she was, but everyone would be just as particular if she heard notes the way she did. She sat until she was confident that the entire piano would sound to the audience the very voices of angels. If only she were as sure of her dress as the sound of her music, but she didn’t have the same control over the quality of fabric as the quality of sound.
It wasn’t that she was nervous, she told herself, because of course she would perform wonderfully. Rather, it was more like… when no one’s opinion in particular mattered suddenly everyone’s opinion mattered. It was precisely when you had no one to impress that you should impress everyone if only because no safety net of someone, anyone, that mattered would be there to pick you up again in the event of disaster.
Okay, maybe she was a little picky and a little nervous.
Oh well.
It was a combination of both nerves and sitting for a long period of time that brought her to the foyer of the music hall that evening. It usually made her feel a little better if she had a chance to mingle a little bit with the people who would be listening to her music. Sometimes she talked to a lot of people briefly; sometimes she only talked to a few, but either way it reminded her that her audience was, in fact, made of normal people and not hundreds of judgmental clones of herself.
And that was important, because she was her worst critic.